the beautiful past; is long gone-

2008-09-05T00:29:00.001+08:00

hello people(:

I've officially moved to http://thebeautifulpast.wordpress.com

:D relink please!(:

2008-09-03T23:06:00.003+08:00

you're the light of my life.
you're the meaning of my life.
you're the direction in my life.
you're the love of my life.

but these you have yet realised.

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i'm still sick. :(

2008-09-03T19:22:00.001+08:00

why can't i sign in to smu vista #(*&@!(#*&@#(* super irritated now lah. grr.

2008-09-02T22:49:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so tired and so sick. :( doc gave me 4 types of medication, and was talking about the drug allergies I have. very nice school doc that we have! :D free consultation & medication some more. haha.

I need a better life.

2008-08-30T12:05:00.004+08:00

I'm trying to brainstorm for ideas!! for creative thinking homework :| haha. This is tough lah. this mod should be 1 full credit unit!! not just 1/2 :( haha.

Let's look at the list of work I have to do:

1) Intro Stats: must prepare for class by reading the slides!
2) Mgmt Comm: write a memo by Friday, 5th Sept
3) AS: finished the work alr!! but not sure whether my answers are correct. shall compare answers soon :D
4) CT: creative journal (the one i'm working on now!!)
5) LTB: brainstorm on an idea for our CSP project!! gotta think along the lines of culture and the arts. :|
6) Biz Law: readings for next week & group assignment qn3!

Miscellaneous:
1) buy laptop skin & perhaps laptop cover for myself & for joyce!
2) prepare for OCIP interview!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TO NEPAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
3) prepare for some networking session which is on thursday lah.
4) remind myself not to skip ccas! :| haha.
5) buy assessment book for my student!! for final revision for EOY exam!!
6) I'm taking MFE, FA, TWC, BGS next sem!! need to think of one more mod to bid for.. :D

i foresee a very busy semester ahead. :} can't wait for the excitement to start!!!! better be able to cope with the workload. :)

when will this come to an end?

It shall be a happy weekend ahead!! hopefully i get to finish ALL MY HOMEWORK before sch starts again on monday! :( I'm so unhappy with my timetable. shall learn from my mistakes so that I won't plan for such nonsense timetable next sem!!

Anyway, here I am sharing one of the videos I took during fireworks festival last week! (:

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mesmerized by you.

2008-08-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

swinging. ;|

2008-08-27T23:25:00.002+08:00

you leave me clueless.

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lessons at 830am tomorrow.. can't believe it.

can't wait for friday to come. i need a good sleep and a good mugging session, finally.

packed weekend & following week. oh well.

2008-08-23T18:03:00.002+08:00

anyway, this is a reminder for myself coz i really cannot remember the CCAs i signed up for. i must take them down now!!

Handball, mahjong club (LOL), investment club, squash (hmm.. it's at YCK. damn far), SMUX, broadcast&entertainment, TriTouch (signed up coz simin asked me to lol), strategica (SETTLERS!!!!), photog! i'm intending to try volleyball too!! but that's provided there's recre. coz i know quite a few AJ vballers are continuing their 7th year of vball trainings in smu :| oh well. haha

I think i'll keep handball, mahjong, investment in the end!! see how :D haha.

2008-08-23T17:27:00.000+08:00

HANDBALL IS COOL!(:

anyway, i finally got to know theperson lah!! the person who knows my frens but didn't know me beforehand. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA

DAMN CUTE.

2008-08-20T20:35:00.002+08:00

got super BORED reading chap3 of Principles of Business Law in Singapore.

THAT EXPLAINS WHY I'M NOT TAKING LAW, definitely.

:

whywhywhy!!!! bf tell me why. HAHA. -faints- this is a weird occurence!

2008-08-20T00:45:00.001+08:00

somehow i feel the dependence.

i don't know why.

hope all these are happening for a good cause.

2008-08-16T22:28:00.005+08:00

me and sebby

VERY HOT, arif, me!

GARA & nicole!!

ZEUS!(: @ convocation!(:

GARA & me!!!! ignore the rest!!!! haha :D

us with our stupid helmets!

me and ade!

ade, jia, nicole, me!

me and my senior!(:

me and lovely!(:

stupid squeezing game!

candid!

zeus!!!!!!!!!! (: i love zeus :D

my lovely FTB GROUP!!!!!!!! (: ZEUS! WE LOVE EACH OTHER (other than potato!!)

finally done with all the miscellaneous stuff before the official start of sch!

ftb run3 was the bestest camp ever lah :D my last camp was quite good too!(: good food, damn slack :D haha nice people too!(: people whom i'm going to work with closely for the 4 years.. :D

prof suggested that i shud go for 2 overseas exchange programmes. so i guess i will!(: see how it goes! :D

i really loved ftb run3!(: people are really nice! and i've found many people studying biz&econs too!(: so they'll be my study buddies too!(: but kinyip's my current study buddy for 2 mods! haha quite cool lah. and i dont know who my classmates r for my 3 others mods :( haha hope to see familiar faces during seminars!

i'm so tired.

sch's starting in 2 days' time and i'm so unprepared.

2008-08-10T00:01:00.002+08:00

8.5 more hours to go before I go for my next camp! FTB RUN 3! :D

I shall be enthu about it huh! :| But I'm really sian and tired. :| somehow I'm looking forward to it, but I'd love it if the reporting time were to be pushed back, and if we would break camp earlier. haha :D nvm!(:

Olympics is so cool so far! (:

i heart you no more.

2008-08-08T23:48:00.003+08:00

jumping outside city hall :
our grp! 1st okay! :D
trying to eat tao hui (the soya bean thingy) using a stupid spoon! haha. The tao hui's good! near sunshine plaza!
Sushi roll! :D me and deb rolling
our death god!! and I was holding on to his fave apple! :D

Okay, more pics on facebook! lazy to put here :)

Life's seriously a bitch when your laptop sucks.

2008-08-08T19:16:00.001+08:00

Wonder if I'll ever see you again..

or does it even matter?

080808 olympics :D

I'm sick of camps. :|

2008-08-07T14:18:00.002+08:00

My tag replies to:

victim: hello back! so sorry I didn't turn up for the gathering that day! :| had camp!

wilson: LOL THANKS FOR UR WARM WELCOME!

fioNEH!: i lub you! *shyzzzzz* anyway fridays are my free days (so far)! lets hope i'll haf the determination to spend my only free day in nanhua!

marmee: hey marmee! :D hope you're enjoying sch & hope you'll stop falling asleeep during lects! :D and yes thanks for missing me! hahaha lets meet up sooN! (: i'll confirm w u again if i'm going ibiza!

des: wanyi maam neber chiong onezz!!

vic: yes yes i'm in ns!! you didn't know meh!!

deannie: LOL AT LEAST I FOUND OUT HOW TO PLAY THE GAME IN THE END!!!!!!!!! should get some recognition & praise for that lorr!

JeR': hello! which JeR are you?>!?!?!?! thankss anyway! i'll love smu manymany when sch starts!!!(:

Anyway, 2 out of 3 bids were successful! (: haha so means I have 4 mods this sem. But i'm bidding for one more (management comms) with the Elitist, so yea.. HAHA. :D cheapo us!

2008-08-07T00:05:00.002+08:00

I'm back from Bondue and Oikos! :D

Bondue was really wild, and Oikos was really good! ^^, nice people!!

I miss Bondue ppl alrr!!!

And I finally got my laptop lah. ^^ can configure all the stuff alr. But i don't really know how to. -_- CIT!

I am waiting for results of my bidding! ;) bid together w that Raffles Elitist. Let's hope we'll both get the mods we bid for!!

I still weep when I think of you

2008-07-31T17:27:00.002+08:00

approximately 15more hrs before i report for Bondue 08!

and it'll be CAMPS all the way. :D looking forward to them actually! just that i'm 100% sure i'll be freaking tired :( AND I CANNOT WATCH THE LAST EPISODE OF BEACHBALL BABES tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( sadness. shall record it. :D

i've been so bored at home! woke up at 11am :D pig huh. but don't care. :D

thanks ai dong gua for buying army fbt & singlet for me! :D haha hopefully it's really as chio as i think it is!(: haha if not i'll just kill you!!!!!

life's meaningless when you have no goals in mind, and no plans ahead.

the stock market's lousy. singaporeans need to invest more and more daringly, or else SGX will never be exciting. -_-

2008-07-30T17:05:00.001+08:00

	Through the Desert On a Man With No Ears

	A man was in a bad accident and was injured. But the only permanent damage he suffered was the loss of both ears, which made him very self-conscious. However, he received a large sum of money from his insurance company. It was always his dream to own his own business, so he went out and purchased a small, but expanding computer firm. But he realized that he had no business knowledge at all, so he decided that he would have to hire someone to run the business. He picked out three top candidates, and interviewed each of them. The last question of the interview was always the same. "Do you notice anything unusual about me?" he asked the first candidate. "Yes. You have no ears." He quickly eliminated the first candidate. "Do you notice anything unusual about me?" he asked the second candidate. "Yes. You have no ears." He quickly eliminated the second candidate. "Do you notice anything unusual about me?" he asked the third candidate. "Yes. You're wearing contacts." Thinking he had found the man for the job he said, "That's correct. How did you know?" "You can't wear glasses if you don't have any freakin' ears."

from: http://jokes.comedycentral.com/joke_of_day.aspx?adjustDate=10&id=7195

2008-07-29T23:23:00.004+08:00

My faci XANDER LEONG JIA WEI praised me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

x.an ๏ to have fun says:
give them a call lor
bang table bang chair
they sure hurry up wan
wanyi. hearttoheart says:
haha dowan lah. a bit paiseh
HEHE.
okay lah i shud hor! i dunno! hahaha :D nvm. see how tml!(:
x.an ๏ to have fun says:
u oso will paiseh wan meh
haha
wanyi. hearttoheart says:
hahaha
EH WHAT.
WHAT.
WHAT.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW DARE YOU. HAHA.
x.an ๏ to have fun says:
haha
wad i meant was u're so daring and brave
it's impossible for you to be all flustered and shy in such a situation
rightt
haha
wanyi. hearttoheart says:
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HAHAHAHHA
okay! i'm so PRAISED by you!

SEE! I'M SO DARING AND BRAVE LOL. :D my faci is so smart and sharp to have realised that! LOLL.

going Johor tomorrow! to eat! HAHA sounds damn stupid, but yea it has been a long time since i've gone there! so i'm going there to eat ;D and then give tuition in the evening. :)

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you seem so foreign to me now.

/edited;

2008-07-28T22:39:00.005+08:00

It's really painful when REALITY hits you.

It's supposedly a special day. It should have been a really special day today, but. hmm.

twentyeight july is not supposed to have any meaning for me anymore.

I've always thought that you'd be the person I'd meet if I am ever about to die. But I've already met you, which is already more than enough.
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I'll pray for those who are upset, who are hurt, because of any loved ones who left them.

Kaiyan and xing zong, even though i don't know you two well, we've been from the same alma matar, and you two have been my juniors. I'll pray for your family members and loved ones. Rest in peace.

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Live life to its fullest! No regrets. Dare to try, don't ever be afraid.

2008-07-28T15:31:00.002+08:00

we were actually gambling at the table! glow in the dark cards!! transparent base tooo!
grp photo!
JUMPING, lol!
in action!

the highest tower with a ball balanced on it!
zoom in!
weiting me abby!
peipei, weiting, sam, cass, abby, me! (clockwise)
grp pic again!pri sch gathering! :D

2008-07-28T09:17:00.000+08:00

It's 28th July today.

2008-07-27T18:01:00.003+08:00

I feel so saddened by what neh just told me about her friends, and a blog which i chanced upon just now regarding the blog owner's bf passing away during NS training.

Cherish your life and loved ones!

I lost you, but at least you're still around. I should be glad that I still get to see you.

Shan't ask for more.

2008-07-26T22:49:00.007+08:00

26th july 08- Shihui's birthday!!!!!!! Happy Birthday girl! :D really hope you enjoyed ur bball training or sth!(: hehe cya tml!

26th july 08- Project Summer On Sand (brought to you by SMU TriTouch!)

It was the finale today. I guess I've been complaining too much about travelling, thats why I kept wanting the project to come to an end. But now that it has really come to an end, I'm damn sian again. :( I'll miss my entire group! And this quite cool guy ( I dont know his name, but there's too many similarities between him and him which makes me wanna know him better but I'm not sure whether I'll get to see him again. Think he's doing acc, not biz/econs) and the other people I've known during sales! :D

Anyway, pics!

very cute dogs that we saw at ecp!
cute hor!
even cuter!

i dont know if my eyes r open or closed but who cares. HAHA. its my fave castle!
my family!(:
my family again! sister's camwhore skills r good :D
me and my baby @ OUR CASTLE!
we were acting excited over some connector lah. but i don't like it as much as it seems to be =p

my daddy & mummy posing with my grp's castle!!(: It's the tallest castle, btw. So it's the hardest to make (theoretically) coz it has the highest tendency to crumble and topple over ):
My sister!!!!!! with the castle which I think is the nicest and neatest!
Me with the connector beside our castle!
They stole our Sun Wu Kong and Spiderman (zoom in to see the two toys).
me with our castle!!!!!!!!!!!!

seashells that Ariel, Christian, Ekklesia picked up!!!!!! :D haha Mr Chow brought his family to ECP to support the project SOS! (: THANKS A LOT MR CHOW!!!!!!!!!!! :D
that's Christian with the extremely huge camera!!!!!!
camwhore! good skills right!
i think that's our whole grp without our facis!
our grp with Vanessa & Xan!

chengen with two SUPER CUTE KIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
me with that cute kid! his mum wanted to take a pic of us, but he didnt want to take!!!! :(
that's the best alr. so i looked in the same direction as him so that it would look less weird. HAHA. coz he refused to look into the camera!
Sophia and me! she's damn cute! :DDDD
look at her!!!! :D

peipei & oli!!
AGAIN! hahaha scandalous siaz
vanessa and MICHAEL. haha!
omg disgusting! LOL>
i tried my best to squeeze everyth into this shot, but the angle's not good! :(

a few castles & some connectors!!
the castle at the left is FREAKING PRETTY :D my group's castle's the one at the right! the tallest castle!!

a general picture of the entire thing. but i didnt manage to capture all castles ); TOO HUGE!
just some scenery (quite ugly, but heck)

our castles from the back!
the 1st castle's from grp1!(: quite cute also lah!
MY GRP'S CASTLE!!!!!!!!!
eh. some castle with funny faces on it -.- haha my grpmates said they look like some temple/cemetries -.- haha

NICE!

UGLY.
UGLY pic again!
this is made by the 'sandcastles can fly' committee! quite nice lah, but due to the rain and stuff, some details of the castles are gone!
people who built the castle
my grp's castle from the back! not very nice, but SUPER NICE!

duno why i took so many shots of this lol.

S!
my grp's castle again
i love this castle a lot! it's damn neat and nice lah :DD

Really hope that we managed to bring joy to the kids from the 2 organisations which are: Chen Su Lan Methodist Home & En Community Services Society :D

And I really hope the $$ we raised during sales will all go to the kids who really need them a lot! (:

Basically staying at home for the next few days! :D until erm.. 1st august. haha. :)

Hoping for another.

Anyway, Mr Chow was sharing a lil bit more about Christianity to me. Here's what he said:

glad you are reading up more about Christianity but I must say that been a Christian is really simple:

so long as you ADMIT (which I did!) that you are a sinner (since we are not perfect and have made mistakes and done wrong things because of our nature, thoughts, words or actions) and we can't save ourselves from it

and you choose to BELIEVE that Jesus Christ has settled this issue of sin for you, once and for all, by taking your place to die on the cross as a sinless substitute and He rose from the dead after 3 days to prove that He is indeed the Son of God and His sacrifice has been accepted by God, then you will

1. be forgiven of all your sins (past, present and future)

2. be considered righteous before God in spite of your shortcomings because of what Christ has done on your behalf

3. enter into a living and loving relationship with Him forever (eternal life), where you can talk to Him anywhere, anytime by praying or allowing Him talk to you by reading the Bible

4. be part of God's family, where we are brother and sister in Christ :)

5. experience His blessings, guidance, peace and joy in what you do

6. have a glorious hope of Christ returning again (which is very soon according to Bible prophecies!) to establish His kingdom forever in a new heaven and earth where there will be no more sorrows, no more pain, no more sickness nor death nor corruption nor evil nor any bad thing! Behold, everything will be new and be restored back to its perfect condition and we will have a new body that does not age nor fall sick!At that time, it will truly be happily ever after, where each chapter of your story will be better than the one before!

Even though I already know most of what he said, it's always good to be reminded again of all these! (:

Thanks Mr Chow! (:

2008-07-25T23:55:00.005+08:00

I'm happy! close friends know why. :D

I shall blog this moment down, and remind myself that today was the happiest day of my life in the past 1yr7mths11days :D

Thanks for meeting! You may not know how important you are in my life, but it's okay. It's good enough that I know. :D Nobody's ever going to take your place, and yea I really hope to see you again soon!

^^,

ilovemyexboyfriend.

2008-07-24T19:35:00.006+08:00

I felt super useless during today's sandcastle building session. :( My palms hurt like nobody's business :( Cheng En, Sam, Adeline, Peiquan, vanessa also felt the same way lah. so basically we did things really very slowly today. :( And we left early, so no pics of the finished castle! haha.

I'm BURNT. My face's red!! haha.

I cannot really type properly now, but yea I'm not giving tuition tonight, so I should just relax at the computer & go sleep early :D 2 days down, 2 more to go. roar.

Anyway, we all went for the SMU OCS talk today! There's something really cool :D SMU Passport to the corporate world!!!!!!! :D

I really hope I'll like SMU as much as I like it now!This is MY PASSPORT!!!!!!

Business class boarding pass siaz :D

cool right! I'm a SMU citizen!!! ;D

Okay my face's much redder than usual.

Looking forward to tomorrow evening/night! :DDDDDDD

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came back and tried the 'Interests' survey on OnTrac!

I'm an INVESTIGATIVE PERSON! :D

This is quite accurate so far! I want to be an economist/financial analyst! I quite like police detectives! haha and I like sales agents,securities,commodities1 I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE ACCOUNTANCY.

2008-07-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

This is THE ULTIMATE BGS!

We all nearly wanted to get ourselves BG boyfriends for these 3 days 'coz the work's really too tough! :(

My palms are peeling & swollen due to the constant digging & piling of sand @ castle beach ):

IT'S SUPER PAINFUL!!!!!!!!!! :(

And we're only done with the foundation (REALLY COOL BASE which is 1.52m or something). It's almost the same height as me already. =

We're going to build the actual sandcastle tomorrow & on friday!!!!!!! Very excited, but I'll not be around in the afternoon due to OCS talk mah. :\ And I'll not be around on friday afternoon as well 'coz I'm going for Econs pre-camp dinner & stuff, then perhaps meeting Kenneth? hmm super long time since i've mentioned his name. wow.

But yea, no high expectations, esp since I've kena pangseh-ed a million and one times -cough- Still hoping to meet him though.

I'M REALLY TIRED.

OFF TO BED! NIGHTS!.

2008-07-22T17:21:00.003+08:00

SMU'S GYM IS REALLY COOL! :D I don't know if it's just me who is sua gu or what! But yea, there's a TV screen for treadmills, cycling, & those 'stepping' machines!!!!!! The picture shown below is to help me narrate it better. HAHA.

I'm totally amazed! And they have ALL TYPES of machines, like REALLY ALL TYPES. it's so amazing lahhhh :D I was there for only 1hr+ and I totally enjoyed it ^^, Everything's NEW somemore! And there's this 'Rowing' machine, which even allows people to play some fishing game on the screen!!!!!!!! zomg lah.

Anyway, more pics! My sister's Commencement 2008! (: and NHNPCC TOs, HOs & CIs dinner!

me, my baby, my mummy! :D

my mummy, daddy, me, baby, arul

That's about all! hehe :D

LettsA (LOL), my nehneh!, babyshine!!, 0+7, me!

o+7 again, me, 3dwin, maam tingting, stellalala, jieheng!

Family portrait!!!
TOs happened to be standing!
From left, top row: Mr Chew, Mr Tay, Mrs Lee, FIONEH?!?!?!!
From left, bottom row: LettsA!!, babyshine!, 0+7! , me, AddWin, maam tingting!, stellalala, jieheng, jipeng, jiahao.

:D That's all!

2008-07-21T17:26:00.005+08:00

MORE CLASS OUTING PICS! (: credits to MARMEE! ^^ basically i just koped everything from marmee lah :D haha

our gay couple!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D (kidding) jloh & kai!

bee, siangning & marmee sharing a really big cup of mango+carrot drink @ fish&co!

EVERYONE without me! haha. okay, that's onli 8 out of 25 people!

that's me with an ugly pose! hAHA
okay, i had to make the stimulator ride more thrilling, so i kept screaming LOL. Bee looked so much calmer than me!!

the people who went for class outing!

from left: wanyi (me), marmee (super funny face! look at the eyes!!), siangning (our class leader!!), bee (LOL @ her eyes!!), willy (zomg super long tongue), dean, short j loh, kai, jwoo!! :D

@ fish & co!

from top: siangning, marmee! followed by dean, jloh, kai! ;D

HELLO BEE!
siangning acting cute! :D
my marmee! :DD super young right. haha! she's just 6 mths older than me LOL.
SIANGNING & BEE! look damn loving siaz.
siangning, marmee, dean! :D

deannie enjoying his BK drink!
willy! don't know what he's doing lah.
jloh. look so kiddish sia!
kai!

jwoo!! really amazed that he went for class outing!!!!!!!

okay, that's all! ;D lazy to type anything! but yea i really enjoyed myself during the class outing! (: beats ALL THE OUTINGS i've gone for so far.. other than the one with marmee lah. HAHA. ;D

really glad that the attendance for the outing was 9/25 instead of the expected 5/25 LOL. THANKS TO KAIKAI'S POWER!!!!!!!!! HAHA.

okay, shall continue slacking before i go pick my 'daughter' up from sch!(:

2008-07-20T12:50:00.004+08:00

SANDCASTLE PRACTICE SESSIONS!!!!!!!!grp 6 + 7!

our group again!(:

omg some really cute lil boy collecting sand SUPER PATIENTLY :D

another castle during PRACTICE SESSION!!!

THE PROS DOING SANDCASTLE!!!

some rather nice scenery during sandcastle building :D

ECP outing with 25/06 & with Project SOS people! (: It's just a training session! so the sandcastles weren't THAT beautiful. But we'll be improving on the designs later & i'll post nicer pics by tonight! =p the rest of the pics r w my faci, so i'll upload them again another day!

One of the group's sandcastles!

Group 6 aka my group's SANDCASTLE!!

Some sandcastles. I don't know whose!

OUR SANDCASTLE AGAIN!!!!! pretty right!

kai, jwoo, jloh, dean!
kai posing!
that's me on my bike!
wl, jloh is a big-time poser!
dean, wilson, siangning, bee!

kk that's all! =p

2008-07-19T00:55:00.002+08:00

with moks!(: @ erm.. harbourfront!
@ sentosa. purposely dowan let "TO" take a pic of me HAHA.
me & sir wc! :D going to attack IVANNN haha.
some super random pic of me & maam yumei during NCO camp!
omg super old pic @ my ex-company. MY ROOM! okay, kidding. just a vacant room in the office.

an outing w the MOKs :D haha

i realised this is my hair before i cut it & did some funny stuff to it. =x shit, messy room. lol.

from my lover HAHAHAHAHAA.

2008-07-18T00:18:00.002+08:00

We met, we talked online, we lost contact.

Then, we met again, started talking online, and eventually lost contact again.

Then, once again, we met, started talking face-to-face, kept in touch.

You said you replanted this seed, which then grew into a really beautiful plant w the prettiest flower in the universe, and you promised you'd never neglect this flower again.

But you still abandoned it in the end.

It's still alive but almost withering, and it's desperately waiting for you to save it. Not anyone else but you.

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Ich liebe dich fur immer sounds really familiar, but way too far from my reach. You've been a very important part of my life since we met, and you know that deep down inside nobody else can take your place.

You're not perfect, you're not the best partner in the universe, but definitely someone who really gave me happiness, sparking joy, comfort, assurance, hope & faith. I've always looked forward to seeing your smile on each passing day, feeling the warmth of each hug, hearing your soothing voice & spending every moment of my life with you. You've been the sunshine in my life, the one I really thought I'd spend the rest of my life w/.

You're the one who really knows me inside out, and the one who can be my best friend & my partner.Despite knowing that this is really tough & our character conflict each other's, I still truly wish to be back tgt w/ you one day, happily ever after.

I really miss your smile, and miss the times. Even if it's purely self-denial, I still want to trust you for saying that I'll never be replaced no matter what, and that we will still keep in contact. :]

These 1yr7months didn't seem to do anything to lessen the pain or allow the feelings to fade.

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I'd love to see you.

2008-07-15T13:45:00.002+08:00

Looks like I'm going to frequent ECP lots in this 2 weeks!

July
19 & 20: sandcastle building practice session
23-25: sandcastle building for finale!
26: finale! ;D

lots of stuff to be looking forward to! :D that's life, in SMU ^^,

2008-07-14T23:36:00.003+08:00

It's tough, I give up.
I feel like crying

2008-07-14T22:37:00.002+08:00

Wished there weren't scams from NKF and other charitable organisations. It'd really make life easier for good volunteers helping out at good VWOs.

Anyway, I broke the record for seeing tickets (at my side, Bedok lah). Everyone says I shud just do marketing. HAHA. :D I think so too, but I don't really like it =x haha One more full-day on wednesday! Hope it's either at Tampines or Marine Parade. Whichever place has more sales, I'll definitely go :D haha 5mins, 5 tix from 5 different people ;D

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YOU SHOULD JUST QUIT AND BE A FORTUNE TELLER, like seriously. :) I'm so gonna ignore this.

2008-07-14T01:03:00.002+08:00

MADNESS LAH!

2008-07-13T14:15:00.001+08:00

Let's just say I'm feeling extraordinarily happy for a reason only God and I know. :)

And let's just say I'm going to find out more about why I'm feeling this way.

And I know I can't contain this excitement & joy anymore!!!!!

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i'm having a teeny weeny crush on you!

2008-07-13T12:44:00.003+08:00

I guess I really enjoyed myself yday, but not so much as the beach. Probably that's not as meaningful as what I learnt in the evening (;

This leaves me with another 'adventure' for me to actually find out more about Him, and hopefully I'll understand the Bible better & why I've not been able to convince myself to go church despite believing in the religion. (:

Thanks my beloved di for bringing me over to church yday night! :D nice performance, lots of stuff to think about. I did spend some time thinking before I fell asleep like a pig HAHA. :) thanks!: )

anyway some sentosa pics to upload (must kope from vic & the "TO") when i manage to kope them :D haha

OH. AND AMK SUBWAY quality was damn good yesterday! It's the first time I've eaten SUCH HIGH QUALITY SUBWAY SANDWICH!!!!!!!!! a pity the cookie wasn't as nice as usual. :( haha
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suddenly i feel as though i've found what i've been trying to find for so long. i'm not sure about it, but let's hope its true. (:

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this happiness is something which i've not experienced in a really long time. :}

2008-07-11T17:32:00.003+08:00

just came back from Project SOS team building games! :D quite cool. was in grp 6!! very lucky coz the facis are damn nice! ;D and the grp is cool too! ;) at least they're all v frenly ppl! (: new frens, cool ideas. :D

i'm still thinking if i shud go for the vball training this sunday. but weiting's not free to go w me. loooks like i reli must go alone! HAHA. ;D

looking forward to learning how to make the giant sandcastles @ ECP! ;D if you guys go ECP, go find me! :^

thinking of whether to go for a.sixteen outing tomorrow. HAHA. quite shag today.. mebbe it depends on whether im too tired to go tomorrow (: but i wanna play b vball!

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bloodyhell, why no karma. i want him to suffer like how i did. #(*@! shall be more patient w it. someday somehow. BOTH OF THEM. irritating. #!@#

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PROJECT SOS! :D 4hrs down, 76 more to go! haha :D

2008-07-10T22:42:00.003+08:00

Your Personality Type: The Spontaneous Idealist

Spontaneous Idealists are creative, lively and open-minded persons. They are humorous and dispose of a contagious zest for life. Their enthusiasm and sparkling energy inspires others and sweeps them along. They enjoy being together with other people and often have an uncanny intuition for their motivations and potential. Spontaneous Idealists are masters of communication and very amusing and gifted entertainers. Fun and variety are guaranteed when they are around. However, they are sometimes somewhat too impulsive in dealing with others and can hurt people without really meaning to do so, due to their direct and sometimes critical nature.

This personality type is a keen and alert observer; they miss nothing which is going on around them. In extreme cases, they tend to be oversensitive and exaggeratedly alert and are inwardly always ready to jump. Life for them is an exciting drama full of emotionality. However, they quickly become bored when things repeat themselves and too much detailed work and care is required. Their creativity, their imaginativeness and their originality become most noticeable when developing new projects and ideas - they then leave the meticulous implementation of the whole to others. On the whole, Spontaneous Idealists attach great value to their inner and outward independence and do not like accepting a subordinate role. They therefore have problems with hierarchies and authorities.

If you have a Spontaneous Idealist as your friend, you will never be bored; with them, you can enjoy life to the full and celebrate the best parties. At the same time, they are warm, sensitive, attentive and always willing to help. If Spontaneous Idealists have just fallen in love, the sky is full of violins and their new partners are showered with attention and affection. This type then bubbles over with charm, tenderness and imagination. But, unfortunately, it soon becomes boring for them once the novelty has worn off. Boring everyday life in a partnership is not for them so that many Spontaneous Idealists slip from one affair into another. However, should the partner manage to keep their curiosity alive and not let routine and familiarity gain the upper hand, Spontaneous Idealists can be inspiring and loving partners.

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That's my personality! ;D haha i'm not v sure how accurate that is, but perhaps quite a big part of it is true ;)

anyway, CIP tomorrow! :D 1st session! bonding w people whom I've probably never met in my life before! starting to be sociable again! HAHA i've been really lazy to mingle w people lately.. but guess it's time.. HAHA. I don't have a choice anyway! haha I'm gonna complete my 80 hrs of compulsory CSP first.. then I don't have to worry about it. Actually I'm going for OCIP anyway.. don't have to worry de. But i think the CIP tomorrow is really fun! (: gonna learn how to build sandcastles!! those gigantic ones ;DDDD I've never done that before!!!!!!!!!!!!

But firstly, I'm gonna bring my "daughter" to sch tomorrow before I go SMU :) hehe I'm going alone! No friends going w me! HAHA pro rightt.

Very excited about everything lah. Just that signing up for 2 CIPs in july means... NO TIME TO RELAX ALREADY. );

2008-07-09T15:59:00.002+08:00

2 more days! :) can't wait. and i can stay at home & rest 24hrs alr :D haha.

I guess it was so much better today.. perhaps I've finally managed to learn Sir wc's method sia. HAHA actually the kids are really cute & smart. a pity they're very naughty and we cannot exactly afford to smile at them or be nice to them, or else they'll just climb over our heads. :| poor teachers.

I guess I've also learnt quite a bit about communication & teaching.. oh well.

I'm officially a SMU student! :) I've matriculated! yay. :D on 7th July. :D haha I got my card, yay. can gain access to every place in smu!!!!!!!!!!!! :D really can't wait for sch to start! ^^ 4 camps, $100 bucks or so! haha happy. ;D

1-3 Aug: Bondue Camp Run 1(SMU LKCSB Camp)
4-6 Aug: OIKOS 08- The Escapade (Economics Camp)
10-12 Aug: Freshmen Team Building Camp Run 3 (for ALL smu students!)
13-15 Aug: LKCSP camp
18 Aug: 1st day of school :D

I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-06T22:15:00.002+08:00

I've decided that it's okay. If I really can't sell the laptop, I'll just use it for the nx 2 yrs or so. :) if I'm rich by 2yrs later, I'll get myself a nice laptop that I really like. If not, i'll just continue to use the laptop (the one that's 2.1kg).

I was really pissed off at first I guess. =x sorry xiong-ster for the attitude! HAHA. and thanks for cheering me up & helping me check out the specs. :)

I'm deciding whether I want to go for the NTU NPCC freshmen camp :D haha sounds like so much fun!(: at least I can try the high ropes ONCE AGAIN. I miss it!!!!!!!!!! But I'm already going for so many camps.. so expensive lah. :( and I'm paying them myself. There goes the 200 bucks I just got from one tuition student. ROAR. Luckily I'm doing relief teaching :D haha makes me feel slightly richer. :}

I'm really tired and sleepy after a run + dinner + some ICE WINE w 17% alcohol content. :D haha so I guess I'll be slping real soon :)

CAN'T WAIT FOR MATRICULATION TOMORROW! VERY EXCITED TO GET MY STUDENT PASS + ALL THE OTHER STUFF LAHH! :} i heart smu. :D

bestie's out for sunday & monday! congrats! HAHAH enjoy urself! :) but i guess we're both too busy to meet up & stuff.. enjoy & cya again nx weeek or sth! :D

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relationships are not the most impt things in life. hope u cheer up & be happy again soon okay! :D

2008-07-02T13:28:00.005+08:00

Hi all! I have 2 BRAND NEW laptops (SEALED, not opened before) on sale at a negotiable price. If you're interested in either of the laptops, please tag in my blog & let me know. I'll reply you asap.

Option 1
TravelMate 6292-602G25Mn (Light weight series)
Intel® Core™2 Duo Processor T7500 (2.2GHz, 800MHz FSB, 3MB L2 cache), supporting Intel® Extended Memory 64 Technology (Intel® EM64T)
Intel® Centrino® Duo processor technology
Microsoft Vista Home Premium ( Preloaded with SMU Xppro Image OS)
Intel® 965GM Express chipset
3GB DDR II RAM
12.1" WXGA Acer CrystalBrite™ colour TFT LCD
Intel® 965GM Express chipset with integrated 3D graphics, featuring Intel® Graphic Media Accelerator (GMA) X3100 with up to 358MB of Intel® Dynamic Video Memory Technology 4.0
250GB HDD with Acer DASP (Disk Anti-Shock Protection)
DVD-Super Multi Double-Layer drive (DVD+/-RW)
2.1 Kg with 6 cell battery and Built in optical drive

Option 2

Aspire 4920G-602G25Mn
Operating System
Genuine Microsoft® Windows Vista® Home Premium
Processor and Core Logic
Intel® Centrino® processor technology
Intel® Core™2 Duo processor T7500 (2.2GHz, 800MHz FSB, 4MB L2 cache), supporting Intel® Extended Memory 64 Technology (Intel® EM64T)
Intel® 965PM Express chipset
System Memory
1GB DDR II RAM, upgradeable to 4GB using dual soDIMM modules
Display/Graphics
14.1" WXGA Acer CrystalBrite™ TFT LCD, 1280 x 800 pixel resolution, 16.7 million colours, 16:10 viewing ratio, supporting simultaneous multi-window viewing on dual displays via Acer GridVista™
ATI Mobility™ Radeon® X2500 with up to 1024MB of HyperMemory™ (256MB of dedicated GDDR II VRAM, up to 768MB of shared system memory), supporting Microsoft® DirectX® 9.0, PCI Express®
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250GB HDD
5-in-1 card reader, supporting Secure Digital (SD), MultiMediaCard (MMC), Memory Stick® (MS), Memory Stick PRO™ (MS PRO), xD-Picture Card™ (xD)
Media Drive
DVD-Super Multi Double-Layer Drive (DVD+/-RW)
Dimensions & Weight
344 (W) x 246 (D) x 37/42 (H) mm
2.45 kg with battery pack
Power Subsystem
ACPI 3.0 CPU power management standard: supports Standby and Hibernation power-saving modes
53.3 W 4800 mAh Li-ion battery pack (6-cell): - 3-hour battery life with 6-cell battery1
Acer QuicCharge™ technology: - 80% charge in 1 hour - 2-hour rapid charge system-off - 3-hour charge-in-use
3-pin 90 W AC adapter
Keyboard and Pointing Device
88-/89-key, inverted "T" cursor layout, 2.5 mm (minimum) key travel (Japan 93 keys)
Seamless touchpad pointing device with 4-way scroll button
12 function keys, four cursor keys, two Windows® keys, hotkey controls, embedded numeric keypad, international language support, independent Euro and US dollar sign keys
Empowering Key
Easy-launch buttons: WLAN, Bluetooth®, email, Internet, programmable
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Audio
Dolby®-certified surround sound system with two built-in stereo speakers and one subwoofer supporting low-frequency effects
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Built-in microphone
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Acer Video Conference, featuring: - Integrated Acer Crystal Eye webcam, supporting enhanced Acer PrimaLite™ technology - Acer PureZone technology
Modem: 56K ITU V.92 modem with PTT approval; Wake-on-Ring ready
LAN: Gigabit Ethernet, Wake-on-LAN ready
WLAN: Intel® Wireless WiFi Link 4965AGN (dual-band quad-mode 802.11a/b/g/Draft-N) network connection, supporting Acer SignalUp™ with InviLink™ Nplify™ wireless technology
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4 x USB 2.0 ports
1 x ExpressCard slot
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1 x IEEE 1394 port
1 x Consumer infrared (CIR) port
1 x External display VGA port
1 x S-video/TV-out (NTSC/PAL) port
1 x Headphones/speaker/line-out jack with S/PDIF support
1 x Microphone-in jack
1 x Line-in jack
1 x RJ-45 Ethernet port
1 x RJ-11 modem port
1 x DC-in jack for AC adapter
Software
Acer Empowering Technology (Acer eNet, ePower, eAudio, ePresentation, eDataSecurity, eLock, eRecovery, eSettings Management)
Acer Arcade™ featuring Cinema, Video, Music, Acer HomeMedia
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Acer Launch Manager
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1 GB / 2 GB DDR II soDIMM modules

There'll be a few items given to the 2 laptops for FREE!

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4 GB Thumbdrive

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Please approach me asap, latest by 10th July! The stocks will arrive by end of july! (:

Thanks!

2008-06-29T17:43:00.002+08:00

yay went to trim my hair today :D and BOTH tuition sessions were postponed/cancelled today, so I spent my time SLACKING :D feels damn good to be at home the whole weekend without having to entertain terrible kids :} no money, but who cares. not as if i'm short of money or what. :D

bestie tried Bailey's today! :D for the 1st time! (: anyway, dont think so much about it already okay. i can't really help you on it, but i hope you will get used to it soon. ;] cheer up!

gonna dye my hair right before I get into uni (coz i can't dye it now.. must serve unit). ^^

this weekend is coming to an end.. ): back to terrible work again tomorrow + the next few days. :| anyway, I'm going back AJ tomorrow to meet mok, which is a good thing! :D feels better knowing that I'm going back to the school I really like. :] and i'm gonna buy PUMA tee :D haha esp since the freaking weather is so hawtt, the sleeveless PUMA tee will make me feel much better ^^,

tuition tomorrow, the day after, and the day after, and the day after. :\ SIAN.

2008-06-27T22:47:00.003+08:00

I've been seeing all kinds of students of different ages lately, and it feels as though it was just yesterday that I'm as young, lively & innocent as them..

Children who are in primary school are so lovely, sweet, cute, mischievous and active. Children in secondary school may or may not be as active. Generally the sec1 students should still be very lively and energetic like the pri sch kids. As you grow older, you really feel that life passes by faster, but your movements become slower.

I've lost touch with the childhood memories & children way younger than me. I've forgotten how to take care of them, make them happy, etc.

It has been a really long time.

I was in the bus 184 today, and I saw a mum carrying her pri sch kid's ultra bulky and big bag and squeezing through the extremely crowded bus just to get a seat for the kid, yet she couldn't get a seat for herself & had to stand somewhere near the child (but she was in a super awkward position & obviously she'd be blocking the passengers boarding the bus if she continued to stand there). I found it quite a touching yet common sight; all children get motherly love somehow, just that mothers show their care & concern using different ways. Some children don't understand how tough it is for their parents to tc of them & provide them w everything, and they're always asking for more. Some are more mature & understanding, so the parents have a lighter load & an easier life. Parents sacrifice so much for their children, and I really wonder how many of the kids really know what their parents are going through.. hmm.
So anyway, I gave my seat to the parent since I was sitting just opposite the kid & I guess the mum wanted to be close to the kid throughout the entire journey. She refused & kept telling me that it's okay.. which made me think even one step further- she's really different from the people I used to meet in bus 966. Extremely kiasu people who take the bus (*)#@!# they'd walk to the bus even if there are 3 buses queuing at the bus stop before bus 966. In fact, some people would run/brisk walk. -.- I'm really glad I'm not experiencing the same old freaking sandwiching-exercise in the stupid bus every bloody morning & evening. Instead, I take a 3 min walk every day, and see cute yet naughty lil kids and take care of them.. hmm.

There are way too many things in life that we take for granted. The food that parents prepare for their kids for recess time (pri sch), the school bag that's well-packed for the kids since the previous night, the clean & brite school shoes washed by parents over the weekend so that their kids do not get scolded in school for having dirty shoes, the well-ironed uniforms prepared at night after their parents end work.. etc. When I was in primary school, I never realised how tough it was on my mum to take care of me and tolerate my nonsense. It has been exactly 12 and a half years since my mum first woke me up for school. Even until now, she still has to wake me up for school, prepare my breakfast for me so that I can eat it while traveling to school/work, fill up my water bottle for me, iron my clothes, wash my shoes, socks, clothes, cook my meals...and the list goes on.

It's only now that I can really reflect & feel really guilty & upset with myself for having such attitude throughout the past 18 years.

Mummy & daddy, I love you so much.

/edit:
Something to add on to this.. Fortunate people will never understand how much misery the less fortunate go through. never.

p/s I didn't want the previous entry to be read.

2008-06-26T15:37:00.002+08:00

Nostalgic moments as I stepped into my primary school once again.
It has been 6.5yrs since I've graduated from primary school. 7 years ago, I was preparing for my PSLE. I only have vague memories of the sufferings; I enjoyed myself in pri school most of the time & I really liked my classmates back then.

6 years ago, I felt so upset that I was the only one from my primary school who went to NHHS. But it didn't take long before I got used to the place & started to like it (mainly not the school but the people & my squadmates).

5 years ago, I was suffering from some kind of depression & I had to go for counselling. Terrible experience but indeed valuable.

4 years ago, I was much more hardworking & studious than before as I was in a rather competitive class. I enjoyed NPCC so much during that period of time, and it seemed like my best achievement, together w my academic ranking in class (only) lol.

3 years ago, I was blinded and thought it was like a fairytale which could last forever. It was the year when I enjoyed myself the most out of the 4 years in sec sch, and I really understood what happiness is all about back then. O level was really manageable because of the person who gave me constant encouragement :)

2 years ago, I got into a JC which I thought I wouldn't like at all, and the fairytale gradually became a nightmare. The only good thing about the year is that I really enjoyed JC life, and I got to know much more about myself.

1 year ago, I thought I let go, and was actively involved in all kinds of activities in school (CCA) such that I didn't have any time to think of stuff. That was also the year which I was granted freedom somehow, & the time when I made even more friends.

Half a year ago, I still thought I let go, but I knew I had yet done so, and hence I continued to drown myself in work & gatherings such that I'd not bother anymore.

2 weeks ago, I finally decided to lighten my workload & relax till school reopens. Realised that there was no longer a need for me to hold on to something that I've lost so long ago.. sounds too easy to let go, but I'll try.

I'm happy w my life right now; trying my best to educate & take care of the kids in sch, playing shares (makes me excited & anxious), spending lots of time @ home w my mum.

I've walked a long way.

2008-06-25T18:06:00.004+08:00

It's a pity that when you move on, some friends don't move on the same way as you do. And somehow you "lose them".

I don't know how you're doing, but it frightens me hearing all the things you said over the chat just now. Please takecare & hope you're still doing fine. Whatever it is, just remember you always have me, your squadmate, your friend. :)

Wished I could do more to help people around me. Perhaps I'm just not doing enough.

Perhaps I'm becoming as realistic as the people out there, and I'm no longer as sentimental. I don't know how good this change is, but I guess that's just the way it is in society today.

Camping in front of the computer all day, refreshing the SGX.com everyday, helping my mum with minimal housework, chatting online.. I'm sick of this life.

That's why I'm going to do relief teaching. Let's hope I'm able to enrich the students w more knowledge.

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I've made up my mind, to forget all the pictures we painted together. It's all too late to go back. I shall try not to bother about what happened 3 years back. not anymore..

Anyway, I like Rihanna's Take a Bow. :D

Take A Bow
How bout a round of applause?
Standin ovation...
Ooooh
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standin' outside my house
Tryin' to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
(Please)
Just cut it out

Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
(You better hurry up)
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' bout "Girl, I love you you're the one..."
This just looks like a re-run
(Please)
What else is on?

And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

ohhhhhh And the award for the best liar goes to you
For makin' me believe
That you could be
Faithful to me
Let's hear your speech
oh...

How bout a round of applause?{laugh}
Standin' ovation.......

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
Now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertaining' eyeahhhhh
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now...

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it will be.

2008-06-25T14:44:00.002+08:00

gonna do relief teaching from 26th June to 11th July! :D

quite excited about it though.. :D but that means i have to wake up at 6.30am everyday, and reach the pri sch at 7am! :D (it's just a 3min walk from my house.. :})

and that means I can onli monitor my stocks from 2pm onward.. ROAR.

:D

12 days x 6hrs (daily) = 72 hrs = $65 x 12 = $780! :) not bad lah. in 72hrs i get $780. ;D after CPF (if I'm not wrong, it's $0.50 per day), i'll still get quite a bit! :)

okay, off to do stuff!

2008-06-24T23:29:00.003+08:00

was blog hopping & i realised that there's this blog with really nice pictures! :D

http://perceptionsphotography.blogspot.com/

shall take up photography nx time :D

2008-06-22T18:15:00.002+08:00

All hail to HOLIDAYS! :D

1 more month before all the camps start.. :\
1-3 Aug: SMU LKCSB camp
4-6 Aug: SMU Econs camp
13-15 Aug: SMU LKCSP camp

sports camp! :D

can't wait. :D

Enjoy the Shanghai trip, marmee & shortie! :D hope to see you two again soon! :)

I miss my baby ): coming back on the 28th! :) hehehehehe :D takecare & hope you're enjoying yourself! :D

bestie, all the best for ur new vocation okay! :D it's gonna be fine, don't be sian! :)
grats to those who got into command sch!(: good luck!

MY SPAN OF HAPPINESS HAS JUST BEGUN :]

2008-06-20T09:15:00.000+08:00

Students & NSF, please use STARHUB NOW! :D

Starhub Powervalue 100, going at $25.68 with unlimited SMS to ANYONE!!
hurry grab! :D

2008-06-20T00:04:00.001+08:00

it's a pity that you decided to give up _ to go _, and that's why we are not in the same _.

);

2008-06-17T19:49:00.002+08:00

I was moodswinging. :(

But i'm fine now! & glad that somehow I'm unemployed! :DD I've been waiting for this day for a long time.. :D

I'll miss everyone, especially the people whom I've worked with pretty closely. :)

Firstly, Evelyn. Thanks for being so patient & willing to share your knowledge with me :) I really learnt a lot under your care & guidance! :D I'll never forget the times we spent working OT (they were really few, coz you always didn't want me to tire myself out) during U+1, U+2, U+3, & U+4.. And the stupid times we spent cleaning shit for VAT. That was a horrible experience, but the load was lightened with your help! :) thanks so much! :) Keep in touch okay! ;D i'll miss you a lot!

Secondly, Chun Kiat. Even though I only spent a short time under you, I know you're nice & you do things really quickly! haha sometimes I don't exactly understand, but I'll still nod my head & figure it out myself after that. HAHA but that's not the point! the main thing is, thanks for being so nice & bubbly all the while, which makes me feel like helping. A pity you're busy more than half the time, that's why I feel that I've not been much of a help to you. :\ anyway, let's hope you clear your work quickly & then you get to rest for a weekend before starting your new job! :) take care! :D meet up on 27th!

Kitty. I'll miss the times passing down work to you! still remember the times when we had "intensive crash course" to teach you all the stuff.. I really hope you'll be able to cope well! :D and I'm sure you will! :) Thanks for sharing with me really nice stories about your marriage & stuff. :D haha I'll miss talking to you! :( take care and hope to meet up with you soon!

Elaine. hehe I look for you when I don't have anything to do, or when I feel that you need help! haha basically all the times that are related to you are OT hours. LOL but yea I did enjoy myself during the OT hours, as you don't stress me that much, which makes me feel so much better. :) thanks for your guidance & patience with me when I had problems with the stuff I was supposed to do.. and for letting me go early (short OT hours) :D take care! :D

Christine. tinetine! I'll miss your laughter & joy lah. you're super cute & nice to talk to & have fun with. ;D i like your new hair! haha so yea I hope you stick to that hairstyle. :D haha it has been great fun & joy sitting so near you.. and you'll always ga jiao me when I don't sit straight. LOL. I've no backbone problems, thanks to you and NPCC! haha :D take care okay, and I'll be waiting for your message about the project thing! :D

Joanne. you're a very sweet & nice lady! stop worrying about your hair being messy & stuff. HAHA i find it nice & stylish! :D so I'm gonna have a similar hairstyle soon! :D hehe takecare, and keep in touch okay! :D

weijie, joyce, qiuxuan, i'll be meeting you guys for mahjong & K soon, so I'm definitely not gonna miss you guys. haha :D

kenny, aishah, weetiong, hope to see you all someday somehow! :D

vivienne, jeong, phayhoon, abigail, angela, laywah, connie, shirley, george, mandy, lily, pauline, yanyu, peggie, jane, sweekuan, jacq, ryan, hoang, chenyun.. thanks for all the memories! :D

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got to give tuition now! will continue the post later :D

2008-06-16T17:49:00.002+08:00

It has been long since I've seen the weak side of me. Very long since I've felt this empty, this lost, this lonely.

I've not bothered to ask since then; I knew it would be a futile attempt, as usual. Yet, it doesn't mean that I'm ignorant of what's going on. I'm just tired of trying.

I wished you would understand me, and would give me a new meaning to the life I'm living now. I wish you would add that spice to my life, so that it'll be colourful once again.

I don't know if that's the happiness that I'm really yearning for, but I know I've lost it since the day. The day you made the decision.

You'll never understand how it's like to be in this situation for this period of time; you'll never understand how it's like to lose your loved one, because once you lose it, you get a new one. It's just like changing clothes. You claim that you still want it, so you decide not to throw it away. However, deep down inside, you're sick of the old shirt & you can't wait to get rid of it. When you decide to get rid of it, you replace it with a new one immediately. You don't feel the pain, not at all. And for some funny reason, I'm the old shirt that who (that) has been rid off, instead of it being the other way round. To you, I'm numb, I have no feelings. Even if I do, it is one of a millionth of the least possible significance to you.

That's why I'm non-existent.

You've taken it for granted.

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The heart's dead & it'll never be back anymore.

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Cherish it, or else you never know when it's gone. Don't lose contact with your loved ones and friends, or you won't ever know what's going to happen the next second. Perhaps it's not just losing contact, but losing him or her.

2008-06-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

Finally I find someone who happens to be in the same boat as me. Not exactly rejoicing because I know how tough it's like to feel like this for a long time, but yea at least I know that there's someone out there who's as _ as me. :]

I want Fujitsu P8010!!!! but PC show's over ): and i don't think it's sold @ SMU PC sale. ):

Can't wait for matriculation!! I want to settle all Uni stuff & go for a million camps! :D SSU Sports camp, Econs camp, BBM camp, LKC Camp, etc.

Perhaps I've never existed in your life since then.

\sometimes i just feel like running away.

2008-06-15T17:26:00.000+08:00

it has been 18 months.

2008-06-11T22:45:00.001+08:00

D:

i feel like slapping myself for agreeing to extend for 1 more day. but I'm taking leave on friday, which means I'm gonna work on monday.

#@#!

2008-06-10T18:50:00.005+08:00

two more days before i officially quit my 7/hr job! FINALLY. :) and i'm most probably not going to work anymore.. :D time to get a rest & a LIFE after chionging work for almost 6.5mths! ROAR.

it's bestie's bday tomorrow.. and i still have to work & give tuition tomorrow ): so cannot meet up! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BESTIE! & ENJOY POP TOMORROW! :D

i'm in love with elmooo! :D hehe.

need to prepare farewell gifts for say. 40 people! that's like super a lot! i don't exactly know what to get yet.. but definitely i'll be buying chocolates.. i want to buy DOVE! & don't know what else. haha. see how! :D gonna shop for the stuff later :}

once i quit, i will do the following stuff:
1) read up on managerial finance
2) be a maid and work at home
3) study & play shares!
4) go for matriculation, and probably 3 camps or more!
5) do CIP! still deciding what type of CIP to go for.. :)
6) go shopping & eating with mummy and perhaps my sister!

mainly that's gonna be my plan after i quit on 12th june :D yay. :D i'm just a lil worried that my office hasn't given up on asking me to extend my stay there =x

; so looking forward to thursday. =D

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anyway, i enjoyed NCO camp last weekend! (: let's hope it's gonna be a good squad & hope they can take over the unit well! :D

& I watched kungfu panda yesterday! so funny lah, and i enjoyed it! found it kinda inspiring in a way.. coz afterall whatever you do, you just have to believe in yourself & you will prolly succeed! :D haha and BF was trying to act kungfu-ish after the movie LOLZ. & i saw someone who looks TOTALLY like BF okay. early in the morning, at bp. which is impossible lah. coz when i msged bf he was still at home at somewhere far from bp! haha weird huh!. =x face same, hair same, specs same, height about the same, walking style same, even the wallet looked the same! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im confused.

HECK! haha

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"People who have been tagged have to write their answers on their blogs and replace questions they do not like with other questions.Tag 8 people to do this. Those who have been tagged must do this quiz and state the person who tagged them. They are not to tag those who had tagged them and have to continue this tagging thing by tagging others. "

A. If your lover betray you, what will you do?
break up with him lor. ):

B. If you can have a dream that will come true, what will it be?
fastfoward uni life, go for the semester exchange in yr3! (: and then work, earn $$, get married!

C. What will your dream wedding be like?
just my family and his family tgt at hawaii or sth! (: no, NOT A THOUSAND GUESTS. it's annoying.

D. Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
okay lah. i guess no one knows exactly what's gonna happen in future right.

E. What is your ideal lover like?
someone who's really understanding, funny, caring! :D

F. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by?
really depends on how you see it lah. it's equally good.

G. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?
anything. as long as the guy's worth the wait, i don't mind spending a lifetime haha

H. If the person you like is secretly attached, what will you do?
kill myself. LOL KIDDING.

I. Is there anything that has made you unhappy this few days?
colleagues keep asking me to extend my stay in the company but i'm seriously tired. but yea i wasn't exactly unhappy lah. and that is the only thing which made me slightly :\

J. What do you want most in life?
to spend my lifetime with my loved ones.

K. Do you like being tagged?
yes i do! but depends on my mood. sometimes im just so lazy to do anything. =x

L. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
should have been married for about 1 yr? HAHA going for countless honeymoon trips HAHA

M. Who are the most important people in your life now?
my family! and a few friends.

N. what kind of person do you think that person who tag you is?
my marmee! HAHA she's nice & funny! ;D and someone who can understand ppl well! :D

O. If you could ask that person for a request and that person will return it, what will it be?
to love me once more.

P. What is the first thing you will do every morning?
rush for work? BUT THIS ROUTINE'S GONNA END REAL SOON. TWO DAYS' TIME!

Q. Would you give it all in a relationship?
yup i will.

R. If you were to fall for 2 people at the same time, who will you pick?
diao. of coz the person i like more lah. haha OH. OR MEBBE THE ONE WHO'S RICHER. LOLL

S. What type of friends do you like?
outgoing & funny ones! :D

T. If you played a prank on someone and they fall for it, what will you do?
LAUGH LIKE MAD.

End of quiz:
i'm not tagging anyone! LAZY!

2008-06-07T02:10:00.002+08:00

I wish I knew why.

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I'm quitting my job on june 12th, like FINALLY. :) was hesitating about the date, but yea i decided that that's the best for me. :D time to relac & then chiong when school starts again on the 18th of August! (:

Clar, we're so gonna chiong Economics together first before we start Biz in yr 3! :D
& Cindy, we'll meet again in Biz in yr3 okay! :D jiayou for ACC!

the worst is yet to come.

2008-06-06T23:43:00.002+08:00

I'm so into the LKCSP! Looking forward to knowing more about the course! Can't wait to start school! (: the best part is the free education. HAHA. & the exposure! (: EXCITED. :D looks like i'm gonna enjoy my uni life!

:D

Finally.

the LKCSP dinner ended at like about 10pm? haha and i'm so sorry marmee that I couldn't go for night cycling! coz it ended at 10pm and i had no idea how to go ECP from SMU! hmm. but I'm sure you'll enjoy it with Danny lah :D haha i'll meet u again okay! really sorry about it, coz i got the dates mixed up =x

& thanks cindy for telling me the DINNER'S TODAY instead of tomorrow! LOL. if not i'd have made a wasted trip to SMU tomorrow =x like zomg. haha how blur!

NCO camp tomorrow! (: so i'm not gonna be home tomorrow, again. :( i kind of miss my bed. only slept on my bed less than 3 times in almost 3 weeks! ): ROARZ.

XIONG, i'm SO LOOKING FOWARD TO BEING A BUSY TAITAI! hAHA. must be rich! ;D

COLLEAGUE, you're not my colleague anymore! but you're always my good friend! (: haha

NEHNEH, never buy gifts lah duh! so super mega $$$! but got some snacks! hopefully i remember to bring tomorrow! (:

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it'll never be.

2008-06-04T10:32:00.094+08:00

just came back from japan yesterday! (: it was a great trip i guess.. lots of pics! so i chose some to post online :) the trip's a BOMB! so my POS Bank account is quite x_x already. haha!

1st day! on the plane to japan! (:

in the plane! (: nice scenery, as usual! ;D

i went hongkong! HAHAHA confusing, isn't it!

hmm.. 2nd day morning! (: in the bus!

1st night @ marroad internatl hotel! SUMO FIGHTING!

our hotel. haha looks so ugly here. but its actually v grand & prettay!

ugly shoes! haha

Tokyo Narita Airport!

FLOWERS! :D pretty eh! they're roses!

the Japanese policewoman! who checked our passports when we were in the bus!
a postbox in Japan!

the guy who acted in Deathnote! L!

Day 2! nice pictures taken when we were in the train!

the electricity tower looks like a fake Tokyo tower! haha

i laughed at the signboard @ first sight! but yea Chiba is a place in Japan!

SMOKING TOBACCO! :D

cool vending machine, cool drinks @ affordable prices, about SGD 2.00 for each drink though! D;

a Japanese guy pulling the rickshaw! :D

LOBSTER & FRIEND! :D
SUMO WRESTLERS!!! but i didn't dare to take a pic with them coz we heard from the salesperson that they don't take pictures with people =x and they are only out to buy some stuff, and are supposed to rush back to their training school!

TOKYO TOWER IN THE DAY!

the 2-day METRO TICKET for travelling, which is about 980 Yen, which is about 13bucks! It's already considered very cheap, as travelling from one station to the NEXT station (means effectively you're only being transported for 1 stop) costs you about 150Yen, which is SGD 2.00!!! you can train from CCK to AMK in singapore and it's about.. less than SGD 2.00?!!?!

One of the many Ferris Wheels in Japan! The 'Rainbow Ferris Wheel'!

Mummy, baby and me trying to form a star on the ground!

the 'Rainbow bridge' from far! i still don't know why it's called the Rainbow Bridge! Maybe it's because of the Rainbow Ferris Wheel.. they're found at the same place!

FAT CAT!

a cute machine in the bus! eats money!! one trip is damn ex lah. hmm. 200 Yen, which is SGD 2.67 for a very short trip!

Baby wants to buy cigarettes @ a nearby cigarette vending machine!!! Such machines are basically everywhere!

Baby, mummy and me @ Tokyo Tower @ night!

TOKYO TOWER!!!!!!! :D
TOKYO TOWER AGAIN!

Our 2-day stay in a Ryokan (Taito Ryokan). It's a traditional house with sliding doors, and we sleep on mats & soft mattresses! And the water we use for bathing is 37 degree celsius or even hotter! HAHA

You think the Sushi is REAL?!! IT'S FAKEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A super small-sized watermelon! even smaller than my face!

BEEEG tomato VS SMALL tomato!

A Temple in Tokyo! @ Asakusa. The temple's GIGANTIC.

The temple again!

MISTER DONUT donuts! :D very expensive.. about 168 Yen for each donut, which is about SGD 2.24! You can get a donut in Singapore for about only SGD 1.20 to 1.50!

BIGG koala biscuit! :D

CHOPPER! ONE PIECE! :D

FARNIE SPECTACLES! :D

KAWAII SHITT!

Baby with FIREWORKS thingy in her hand!!! We didn't manage to play with the fireworks in the end though. :(

A piece with cheap food! About 400 Yen for each bowl of noodle? That's like only SGD 5.33! One of the cheapest places we found! Coz each meal is about SGD 10?!! (Btw, it's a backpacking trip, not those with tour! that's why it's not buffet or 10-course meal!)

Thomas & Friends (the lil boy!!) This train heads toward Mt. Fuji! (: very pretty train! couldn't believe my eyes when i first saw it!! :D super lucky to have tried this train, as other trains to Mt. Fuji are all very ugly =x

Thomas' fave friendd, who's MEEEEEE!

The design in Thomas & Friends' train!

THOMAS LANDD! :D

Desperately trying to open the door of the train cabin!! If not i'd have missed the train!!!!!!!!!! hah

pretty flowers at the train tracks.

pretty flowers at the place near Mt Fuji! Extremely cool weather :D

hmm at a Lake!

The Pig's sweating as it's about to be cooked to become PORK MEAT BUN (seriously!!!!!). But I didn't buy the bun! I'm nice!

Nice Bonsai @ display near the Ueno Zoo in Tokyo!

Bonsai & me! my jacket is almost of the same color as the Bonsai! and the weather sucked. It was raining, so some pics are blurred, and I hardly took any pics of the animals!

UENO ZOO!!! CUTE PANDAS!! A pity the GIANT PANDA passed away in April this yr.. or else we'd have seen it!

Another cute train!

Pretty park!

Popeye the Sailorman!!!!!!! But i didn't manage to take a picture with it as I was rushing off to play the rides @ Universal Studios, Osaka.

Pretty cottage-like "palace" in Universal Studios!

2 cute vending machines for people who are in need of ponchos! the JAWS ride was ultra funny, and the kids were terrified after the ride! and there were real explosions during the ride! so vivid & cool! I love Japan and their technology!

the scenery near the 'JAWS' ride @ Universal Studios

I was on my way to Jurassic Park!

ROARRR. DEAD SHARK!!!!!!!!

spiderman saved me when i was about to fall! serious! :D

Scenery @ one of the streets @ Universal Studios!

Snoopy starsss!

Bounty! 100 billion dollars!!!

The rainbow was formed coz I controlled a few joysticks! Snoopy Palace is a cool place! :D

Land of Oz! :D I was bewitched!

Snoopy's 2 new friends!

Bus stop! so cute right :D

A place at snoopy palace!

A building @ Universal Studios at night!

Ang moh-fied feeling in Universal Studios, Osaka!

UNIVERSAL STUDIOS!

A jigsaw that my family made together @ Museum of History!

Oops. universal studios again! @ the entrance!

Me eating icecream! ex okay. a small piece for 200 Yen. Which is SGD 2.66!
After slimming! Effects of going for Onsen (public bathhouse in Japan, where you go in naked!). Both Baby & I slimmed down HAHAHAHA

Before slimming!!

PIRATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my pirate ship!

Santa Maria, my pirate ship!!!!!!!!!!

A colourful fountain!

Floating Garden Observatory! It's 177m in height! Very beautiful scenery! :D Very romantic place for couples!

Baby & I @ the Floating Garden Observatory! rooftop! 40 storeys!

Some scenery. This picture is totally unpresentative of the actual scenery!! The actual one's sooooo much better!

Mum's fave: Ebi!

On the plane! on the way back ):

Scenery from the plane!

I enjoyed my 10-day trip so much, and I wish I could stay there for a longer time! Kinda regretted not going Disneyland, but no choice lah. some problems with the planning. haha and we stayed in 5 different hotels in just 10 DAYS! felt that it was a super bad choice to have wanted to shift so many times.. super tiring to climb all the steps @ the train stations!!!

I love Japan, as all the Japanese are very friendly & helpful! (: 99.9% of the Japanese helped us to find our way to the different places. 0.1% didn't help because they didn't know a single bit of English. if not they'd have helped! :)

Japan is clean & green, like seriously! Recycling bins are everywhere. :D and people really throw the rubbish accordingly! haha.

And Japanese are healthy because they have to walk long distances in train stations (there are a zillion exits), and climb staircases (most Tokyo train stations DON'T HAVE ESCALATORS, and we guessed that it's because they want their people to "exercise" everyday, LIKE SERIOUSLY EVERYDAY). We nearly died climbing with our heavy baggages. x_x

Sightseeing in Japan is really nice! (: went shopping for clothes & food too... but everything's so ex! =( tried the Bullet train Hikari! Nozomi's the fastest bullet train I think.. But our JR Pass didn't include the fastest bullet train.. So we only took Hikari. Fast enough already! About 300km/hr :D and the seats in the train are like Business-class seats in airplanes! roar. super comfy! :)

I want to go Japan again, but I don't want to climb stairs or walk long distances anymore! I want to be a "taitai", just like what weixiong said. LOL.

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Anyway, Area 16 Survival Camp 08 was quite alright. Thank you all TOs, HOs, and CIs for making it possible! Without all your help, it would have been shittay. Thanks so much! (:
Thanks neh for taking over on day 3, or else I'd have missed my flight! HAHA. :D

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I've not let it bother me ever since, and yes I've yet moved on.

2008-05-23T00:20:00.002+08:00

I'm going overseas for 12 days in total! :D

Ubin (2 days) + Japan (10 days)

Can't wait to go Universal Studio! (: and Mt Fuji! and the many museums & historical places! :D and Disneyland/Sea (still unconfirmed)!!!

Can't wait for the Survival Camp to be over, and for it to be a successful one! :) hehe I'm sure it'll be okay :D with all the support I have from the Area CIs, I'm sure it'll be possible! :)

Thanks tyt for helping out in sch ;]

it has been such a hectic 2-week schedule.. and finally it's time to show our POWER. haha! okay crap. going crazy! haha

I realised Area CIs are nice ppl! :D can chat and crap lyk nobody's biz! :)

Anyway, I'm still happy over getting into SMU! :)

my free laptop! :]] haha!

Shall start worrying about where to get my proper meals when I'm in school! :(

Okay, going off to slp! :)

PULAU UBIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-19T18:27:00.002+08:00

Ask and you'll get it.

I strongly believe in it now, especially since it happened to me. And I'm so thankful for it.

Anyway I've decided on SMU BBM and BSc (Econs) ddg. I'm sure giving up NTU biz & acc as well as NUS biz admin will not leave me with an inch of regret at all.

It's time to be realistic, to be sure of what you really want in life. Make the choice, and do what you think suits you the most. It's going to be a decision which will impact you for the rest of your life.

marmee & shortie, i've given up the seats, so stop saying that i'm being selfish by keeping them! haha

I believe in myself and my choice.

2008-05-11T23:45:00.002+08:00

I dont know whats wrong with ntu. they suddenly gave me the ddp I applied for. and i'm unsure of which one i want now. However, SMU still takes the lead. still waiting for NUS to give me my ddp. I'm not sure if i'm gonna get it.

I may be going Japan at the end of this month! :D so happy! can finally relax :) woots. I don't care whether my director's gonna allow me to go for it or not. I'm so gonna go for it no matter what happens ^^,

I'm still waiting for the good news ^^

2008-05-07T21:36:00.002+08:00

i'm starting to get SO SICK of work. i just feel lyk quitting RIGHT NOW, but i know i can't. just coz of this things called responsibility. :\

!@(*&!# i want to earn money, but i want to rest at home too. sucks. :(

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I hope I can still get my bag at Robinsons! blah!

2008-05-05T19:16:00.009+08:00

some pics that i like ^^,

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me and you, always together.

2008-05-05T14:18:00.002+08:00

it's just that you need someone to be there for you when you finally have freedom. you just need someone to love, and for someone to love you.

isn't it prominent to you that you two are just living in different worlds, with different maturity levels, and different way of speaking? stop looking for that kind of "happiness". you know that's not what you really yearn for. wake up. -.-

since you're already getting sick of all these, just let go!

2008-05-03T23:05:00.002+08:00

the more you think, the more puzzling it gets, the more upset you'll feel.

and for once, I shall really do it. I'm done dreaming, done living in the virtual world.

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I want you to be happy, but I know you'll be happier this way. So this is all i'm gonna do! :)

2008-05-02T23:11:00.002+08:00

i know how it feels like to see someone you love leave you and go for another person, just like how Kate decided to let go of Henry in the end, so that he'd be happy with Ashley. sad! I like shows like 'Just like heaven'! and 'Over her dead body' is quite similar to that show! :) hehe.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOYFRIEND! IN 45MINS' TIME! ;) nice time out with boyfriend & marmee :D haha a pity we didn't get to see shortie @ starhub haha

I LOVE STARHUB :]] 2000 sms to ANY number!!!!!!!!!! pwns the rest worzzxxxzzz! :D

NUS NUS NUS!!?!?!!! WHERE IS MY NUS APPLICATION CONFIRMATION!!!?!?!!!

2008-04-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

bestie's back from camp! :] glad you survived the jungle, bestie! ;D takecare & hope you're fine! ^^

it has been a great week other than the fact that i've been really sleepy in the bus until i keep flying & crashing into ppl LOL.

and i'm really happy coz i finally succeeded in being a TOILET CLEANER! ^^ cleaned the shit that has been lying in the VAT account for the past 2.5yrs! :D yay. and i finally presented the well-cleaned VAT TOILET BOWL to my supervisor today ^^ haha really very happy! ;D then my eyes won't be glued to the stupid screen for the 8.8hrs alr! ;D

i passed the 1st round for Civil Service Scholarship! ^^ which is the psychometric test :D so i'm going for the 2nd round! :) happyz!

can't decide between College Day and High Tea with the Dean lol. which one should i go?! i miss AJ, and i'm still unsure if I'm going SMU. so why should I go for the high tea session!? blah.

it has been 1.5weeks since i've bothered about you! ;] that goes to show that your existence doesn't exactly affect me that much. but i still miss the times we really spent together, esp the times at _. the place where we started, the place with fond memories of us ;] you may not remember anymore, you may not care, but i'll never forget & i'll always reminisce. :)

can't wait to choose between the Universities & start school! ^^

2008-04-28T22:25:00.003+08:00

Starting time: 10.25pm
Name: wanyi
Sisters: 1
Brothers: -
Shoe size: 4.5 to 5
Height: SECRET!
Where do you live: singapore

Favorite drinks: almond milk tea with extra pearls! :D Balice (vanilla cream) :D
Favorite breakfast: ham&egg, sandwiches, MACDONALDS HOTCAKE BREAKFAST! :)
Have you ever been on a plane: yup
Swam in the ocean: lol dont think so. not that pro!
Fallen asleep in school: lol of coz. can fall asleep at work too!
Broken someone's heart: i guess
Fell off your chair: hmm.. at home!
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: yea, in the past.
Saved e-mails: yea

What is your room like: messy! and pink!
Whats right beside you: TV
What is the last thing you ate: ice cream! :)
Ever had chicken pox: yea
Sore throat: cant remember the last time i had it!
Stitches: got STITCH, no stitches!
Broken nose: lols!
Do you believe in love at first sight: yea i do
Like picnics: yea! i enjoyed picnics with my family when i was young, and with shortie pressie marmee!
Who was the last person you danced with: wah! cant remember!
Last made you smile: Jacelyn, the lil girl! :D
You last yell at: some pri 2 kids at my house #*(@&!

Today did you talk to someone you like: haha yea
Kiss anyone: nah
Get sick: nope
Talked to an ex: nope
Miss someone: maybe?
Eat: yup!
Best feeling in the world: to love & be loved
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yea!!!! :D
What's under your bed: erm.. mebbe some spiders & cockroaches :D
Who do you really hate: YOU!
What time is it now: 10.31pm

Randoms :
Q:Is there a person who is on your mind right now: hmm not really.
Q: Do you have any siblings: yea
Q: Do you want children: yea i guess..
Q: Do you smile often: yea
Q: Do you like your handwriting: yup :D
Q: Are your toenails painted: yea pink ;)
Q: Whos bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: my sister's! :) or parents one! :D nice enough.
Q: What color shirt are you wearing: white Red Cross shirt!
Q: What were you doing at 7pm yesterday: eating dinner with family & Jacelyn!
Q: I cant wait till: I graduate from uni!
Q: When did you cry last: 2 weeks ago?
Q: Are you a friendly person: hah yup
Q: Do you have any pets: nope :(

Where is the person you have feelings for right now? erm. tekong?
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? yup.
Do you sleep with the TV on? nope duh!
What are you doing right now? slacking!
Have you ever crawled through a window? yea!
Can you handle the truth? yea i guess
Are you too forgiving? sometimes?
Are you closer to your mother or father? about the same :)
Who was the last person you cried in front of? can't really remember!
How many people can you say you've really loved? besides my family members, 1 (excluding friends).
Do you eat healthy?okay lah.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex? yea
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? duh
How often do you go to church?- the last time i went was like 2 yrs ago
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? i'll sleep. :D or go out with my sis or some good frens :)
Are you loud or quiet most of the time? loud lolz
Are you confident? yea i guess!

:D

hoping for a better day tomorrow! :)

islu!

2008-04-27T21:28:00.002+08:00

i love meeting up with stead & going stead's house! HAHAHA <3 LOTS OF FOOD TO EAT, MOVIES TO WATCH, THINGS TO TALK ABOUT! :D 'cept that the journey to stead's house was really #@! due to the terrible weather :(

i liked the NUS interview on friday! (: it was great! much better than expected! THANKS FANGYOU for the PRISONBREAK dvd! :D shall watch it on labour day! :)

i hateeeeeeeee sunday nights because i know that it'll be less than 24hrs before i go to work again ): roarz! plus there's tuition tomorrow :| tiring! i had a really fun weekend though! :D slacking! =DDD

& i love the new desktop! :) really KEWLLL. BEEEEEEEG screeenz! just next to the new tvee! :D wah my daddy rockz!

one week has passed and nothing really significant has happened, other than catching up with stead, my gan kor kor, shihui! & getting to know a few new friends :D

soooooooooooooooooooooon, soon. you'll be forgotten.

2008-04-23T18:39:00.002+08:00

i finally solved my starhub student plan problem :D so i'm feeling better. and i'm gonna solve my UOB online thingy later :D

received NTU letter.. got a place in NTU Business. NTU didn't give me a double degree (for acc+biz).. and i dont know why i just dont feel like taking business in NTU. nevermind. i have until 2nd June to decide anyway :)

going for NUS interview on fri! very soon! :) haha actually i don't know if i'll regret signing up for only biz/econs/accountancy lol but there's really nothing else that interests me/can interest me for 4yrs. lol

i'll see how it goes ;)

2008-04-21T22:21:00.002+08:00

It's barely the start of the week and I'm already drained ): can't wait to go to sleep but there's still lots of things to do :\ roar.

I really dread having to wake up so early #&*@&!#! it's totally shitty & i really want to get a job which allows me to start work at 9am. RAR. I'm so gonna quit by mid june, and get a job near my house :) that'll be the BESTEST idea :D

I can't wait for friday, and I will be ON LEAVE again :D on leave almost once a week =x oops! But it's for a valid reason okay!

Wah i hate starhub all of a sudden, because starhub didn't give me student plan! And i exceeded my budget for phone bills ): stupidstupidstupid. irritating pissifying #*(@&#@! PISSED.

2008-04-17T23:24:00.003+08:00

Like A Rose- A1
And as I look into your eyes
I see an angel in disguise
Sent from God above
For me to love
To hold and idolise

And as I hold your body near
I'll see this month through to a year
And then forever on
Til life is gone
I'll keep your loving near

And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do
Is follow you
To lighten up my load

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

And when I feel like hope is gone
You give me strength to carry on
Each time I look at you
There's something new
To keep our loving strong
I hear you whisper in my ear
All of the words I long to hear
Of how you'll always be
Here next to me
To wipe away my tears

And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do
Is follow you
To lighten up my load

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You opened doors I closed
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

And though the seasons change
Our love remains the same
You face the thunder
When the sunshine turns to rain
Just like a rose

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You opened doors I closed
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

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Really old song, but occasionally I will still sing to the tune, and think about you. It's almost impossible for me to ever let go of you, and I'll not wait for the day to come. I'll continue hoping for the day where we'll get together again. :] be patient, hopeful, confident of myself :] i'll never forget your promises!!! :DD You haven't broken them; it's just that you haven't fulfilled them! I'll wait, reallyyyyyyy!

I shall be persistent and pray! At least I will get to see you in my dreams :} more than blessed to see you for that few hours in my dream! :D At least you will respond in the dream, talk to me for one whole day as though she no longer exists.. I just love to dream of you :) I love to dream of you as much as I love you. Ich liebe schwein! :DD

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Oh well, but who knows if i get a guy in university who can help me let go of Mr. Lui? haha then this whole blogpost will be bulllll. lol. but I don't want that to happen lah, I just want my lover to talk to me and be nice to me like before :} shall continue being in my dreamland atm, until it really comes true :)

Blah, I really can't stop smiling when I think of you. God knows why, we both know why too. :) iloveyou :D 28o7o5!

2008-04-17T11:00:00.002+08:00

I feel extremely good coz i could wake up at 9.30am today! :D no work, only NP planning & Psychometric test to take. haha :D but it's a 3 hour test, and my friends all say that time is the most critical thing about the whole test. bah, hope that my speed will help me finish it quickly. :)

SMU business management + social sciences (economics)!!! :D I still have up to 2nd June to decide if I really want it, or whether I want others. Lee Kong Chian Scholarship, here I come HAHAHA okay I don't even know if they want me or not. haha

ROARS.

must wake up early this sat and sunday ): why must i be busy every single dayyyyyyyyyy ): i need ONE DAY OF REST, LIKE SERIOUSLY! JUST TO REST, NOT TO GO FOR TESTS, NOT TO DO NP PLANNING, NOT TO GIVE TUITION! roarz

2008-04-15T23:08:00.002+08:00

i had a really beautiful dream (without a proper ending) last night (:

i don't care. whatever it is, i'll let the dream come true (and conclude with my own ending). :D

always waiting :D

2008-04-13T21:55:00.001+08:00

still waiting. :]

28

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tag replies:
ah ma- HI AH MA! (: haven't heard from you in a long time! hope you're doing well! (: haha yea i'm always strong HAHA still holding on! (: takecare!

marmee- i still think you did something too dangerous! must stop urself from being so careless next time okay! (: takecare marmeE! :D loves!

shortie- HAHA poor sonny, keep smelling ur smelly feet HAHA it must have been having nightmares HAHAHA yea i think the overseas trip should be on! but i really dont know what we can do there leh! HAHA. ask my marmee whether we're still going! +p she can plan, or mebbe u can!

fioNEH- HAHA yea lor u so kukU! anyhow tap me on my shoulder sia zz i guess i was just too traumatised that time HAHA but dont worry, i wont blame u for that, and i'll still love u as much! HAHA

cheryl- HAHA where got show off! i remember ur disgusting wound too! HAHA takecare, hope you're fine in aussie!

jeya- GROW UP! :D takecare in NS! :D

fsp- I REPLIED IN UR BLOG ALR!

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that's all! (: still waiting

2008-04-11T23:15:00.008+08:00

Sometimes I feel so much like stopping time and taking a really good break that I deserve. But I can't, because life's so fast-paced & time doesn't permit me to. :|

I'm used to my life- wake up at 6.40am every morning, wash up, take mummy's car to the bus stop & wait for 5-10mins for bus 966, report to work, LUNCH (THATS THE ONLY THING EVERYONE LOOKS FORWARD TO), NOT FORGETTING 5.18PM(TIME OF RELEASE FROM WORK)> :D Next, on Tuesdays, Wednesdays & Thursdays, I have to rush back home for tuition. ); tiring, but at least my extremely packed schedule keeps my mind off things. ;)

I saw this really cute little kid in the bus today, and he was like playing peek-a-boo with me. I wasn't in the mood, so I just kept smiling at him (: sweeeet.

I've received my pwetty VISA :D but I still want the UOB MINI card! roarz. Joyce said she'll help me submit the form, 'cause the bank personnel from Bukit Panjang UOB Branch told me that they stopped giving UOB MINI cards ): It's really SMALL & STYLISH :D I like it! must earn more money so that I have money to spend :D haha

Went back to NanHua today, and I saw 3 AJC-ians (the current J1 batch, just graduated from NanHua last year). I felt so super envious of them, because I really miss AJC. I don't know why, I just feel so affiliated to the school. I miss the school compound, I miss the track, I miss the container classroom, I miss the teachers, I miss my classmates & schoolmates (even those hi-bye ones), I miss my coach & my CCA mates, I miss the food (i know everyone just keeps complaining about the food there but when you are so used to eating all those stuff everyday, you just miss it when you don't get to eat it anymore), I miss everything about AJC. I even miss the terrible fall I had the other time, because it was an awful experience which taught me to stop reaching school 1min/less than 1min before morning assembly. haha :D I still remember how badly I cried on the 1st day of my fall because it hurt too much for me to attend lessons properly. And to think that I missed the Economics tutorial class because of my fall, and my whole intention of attending school was because I wanted to go for that tutorial. -.- super sad lah. I couldn't stop crying :\ and it was nearing prelims, so I was so worried I couldn't write properly! ): luckily it got much better after 3 weeks. =)

I will never forget all the memories in AJC! (: Wished I cherished every single moment though. I didn't. I still remember vividly how upset I was when i left NJ for AJ. But come to think of it, I had the best of both worlds. (: got to know people from both NJ & AJ, and I did enjoy my PAE & JAE. :D haha I love my life! ^^v

I'm very thankful for this path I've walked in life thus far. The rest will be left for my prayers before I sleep. (:

I miss you, and I know that it's not going to work out anyway. So I don't know what I'm waiting for. HAHA. But it's okay, at least I feel comfortable at this level (stagnant).

However, I can't wait to see the HAPPY ENDING (wanyi's definition of 'HAPPY ENDING' must be very different from yours). I can't wait to laugh at you when you cry. Sorry for being evil, but I don't see how you deserve a BETTER ending. (:

2008-04-08T18:59:00.003+08:00

happy birthday joyce (:

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work is always bad when Evelyn's not around. i hate work without Evelyn ): luckily she's coming back tomorrow!(:

i've decided to stop being so -argh- about you, and i should start to appreciate you more i guess (: or else i feel too much like a hypocrite.

i hate rain, since i'm always out when it rains. STUPID CURSE (like what ivan said LOL).

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i know someday you will turn back & walk the path you used to take 3 years back.

2008-04-07T00:36:00.002+08:00

hey you,

i'm still trying, and i'm gonna succeed one day. just wait & see.

2008-04-05T00:11:00.003+08:00

work was extremely zzz today, because i didn't use my brains at all :\
but it was quite relaxing in the afternoon since i didn't do accounts-related stuff.
oh well. i wonder how long more i can endure in the company before i feel completely exhausted zomg.

it was raymond's last day today ): no more alt+tab screen! HAH. all the best to you, and perhaps i'll see you in NUS! takecare! :) hah

it was the security guard's last day today too ): sian, everyone's leaving. so i don't feel like staying anymore either. ): but i made my promise to my supervisor, and she's damn nice to me lah. so i shouldn't be evil & pangseh her!

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the EGGTART story is super funny. LOL :X sorry melvin for laughing like a mad dog just now, but weijie & i really couldn't stand it lol

i need a break from work!

and it's killing me

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2008-04-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

TESTING.

2007-03-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

i think i got myself into deep shit! (: just like what my beloved darling yvonne said, IM LIKE DEEP SHIT. omgggggggggg HOW HOW HOW

i dont think i'll get out of this shit soon! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!&^#(@*&#!$

ANYWAYS. 710msgs in 7 days OMG. or issit 6 days. SHEESH. im so super frigging ultra dead WTH.

thanks mr. B, von darling, shortier xh, jm, s & another s for being there. neh too! (: for different things. :D like von.. SHE ROCKS TOTALLY! like how she kept telling me not to think & NOT TO THINK &.. NOT TO THINK when we walked past _________ in that place these few days. haha

FIRSTAID ROCKS omg im a firstaider BEAT THAT! certified firstaider OMG. 29/30 for theory test okay. DONT KNOW ABOUT PRAC MARKS BUT IM SURE I DID WELL LOL!

thanks for being so nice to me, but i really dont deserve it! stop being so nice please. (:

& IM NOT A WEIRDO! omg. LOL

okay, thats all! mr B shud stop playing so much & entertain his s!

2007-03-15T18:40:00.000+08:00

when you walked away from me,
my life became so empty.

no matter how much truth hurts,
i cant continue living in self-denial & i got to face it.

firstaid TEST tomorrow omg. ): i better not fail! if not my 90bucks will go to waste >.<

it hurts so much just to know that __________________

2007-03-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

due to ______'s dying request, here i am again. no mood to blog at all though. HA.

saw jo & her bf today omg. the last time i saw them was at causeway eh.. quite some time ago, when things were different. ha. JO YOU'RE ONE LUCKY GIRL! (: rarh.

attempted to mug but.. not that successful! saw di & many ncos too. =D jerome di, scandalous huh. x)tsktsktsk.

i managed to finish 2 pieces of homework though :D shall do ELECTROMAGNETISM tutorial later :)

yes, thinking DEEP INTO things SUCKS! so it's best not to think.

especially about the happy stuff which will never fail to make me compare them with the present

wanyi's officially crazy! >.< omg SAVE ME.

okay, _____, happy already right?! okay i'm going off :D

2007-03-11T22:42:00.000+08:00

(: suddenly changed my mind & decided to blog. HAHA. but i dont know if this blogging habit's gonna be consistent or not (:

guess i've been very busy for the past 3 weeks.. emotionally & physically. HA! lots of stuff going on, and there's WAY TOO MANY COMPETITIONS for me to cope with! =( tests.. TERRIBLE! either just pass or fail. OMG. haha but it's okay.. :D i'm working hard this hols!

first aid course.. that's gonna take up 3 days of my mar hols. competitions & trainings.. that leaves me ONE FULL day of studying time. giving tuition is seriously fun! (:

openhouse was fine.. but i really don't know where i want to go & what faculty i should get into. -shrugs- DENTISTRY? :D

3 weeks. reality forced me to realise that it's barely possible to _______.
therefore, i am ______________. =)

dar has been ultra nice. THANKS A HELL LOT! (:
shortier, von, marmee, spasticwoman! thanks for being there, seriously.
to you, we are really very different people, so please stop trying to enter my life =( you're making me tired.

__________ are jerks!

2007-02-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

i'm tired of getting hurt. it's either you kill me or you numb my heart. seriously i don't mind dying. yea i'm a loser i am afraid of the pain. but so what? i dont think i need to care anymore.
bye, don't think i'll blog public entries ever again.
& please stop asking me for advice for your whatever problems. i am in no position to help or comment. good luck. & sorry.

2007-02-20T19:39:00.001+08:00

went to stead's house & mr chow's house today :D finally met up with yuekai stead, like after one whole yr! guess i've been too busy with other stuff last year. ha. and now yk stead's busy with other stuff too! so basically i only talked to her for less than 1 hr. =\ auntie, uncle & jiejie were damn nice lah :D thanks a lot for the nice cookies & all! :)

christian, ekklesia & ariel are as cute as ever lah :D and they were trying to tie peilin & i up so that we couldnt leave the place -.- haha damn mischievous but cute :D -faints- thanks mr chow for being so concerned. thanks for the prayers. ill be okay.

black bastard, hope things get better for you ehh? cheer up.

back to school tomorrow.

i want to run all day so that i dont have to think of stuff. (:

lots of tests coming up. and it begins with CHEMISTRY on friday. oh. maybe math on thurs. sigh.

i want to go out with sharon marmee to get my bag! with my angbao money ;D

if you dont want to believe me, dont bother emailing me & make me start thinking about it again.

& i dont want to hurt anyone, as much as you dont want me to.

so much for a HAPPY cny. (:

2007-02-20T03:08:00.000+08:00

if only every other thing could come to a stop that day.

iknowicantrunorhideanymore.
ihavetofaceitalone.

truth hurts, reality sucks.

thingswillneverbethesameagain.

):

2007-02-18T01:37:00.000+08:00

SUPER IRRITATING PEOPLE SHOULD JUST TRY BEING LESS IRRITATING FOR ONCE

okay, im tired. i want to sleep.

2007-02-17T16:05:00.001+08:00

1. Start Time: 4.06pm
2. Name: LEE WAN YI
3. Nickname: shortie! birdnest! kuruvikuudu! yellow bitch! asshole! chilli crab!
4. Astrology sign: sagittarius
5. Gender: female
7. Hair color: black
8. Eye color: brown
9. Height: WTH! IM NOT ANSWERING THIS! haa
10. Favorite color: hmm. ORANGE&BLACK must come together! GOLD! dirty green :D
11. Glasses: i hardly wear them!
13. tattoos: nahh!
14. Birthplace: malaysia!
15. Area code: DUNCH TELL YOU.
16. friends: LOL! yea

******HAVE YOU EVER*****
17. cut your own hair? : YES!
18. done something in the pastregret? : hmm.. dont want to think
19. Have you ever met someone you were not supposed to? maybe..
21. Skipped school? : yep. many times haha
22. Bungee jumped? : no! ):
24. Punched someone? : HAHA. no!
25. Cheated on someone? : no
26. Been arrested? : for what? stealing people's heart ah. i returned it alr
27. Broken into someones house? : LOL no? im not that crazee!
28. Been to a funeral? : yea once
32. Used a lighter? : yep! burn my np boots!

*****FAVORITE*****
34. Season: i dont know!
36. Ice cream flavor: hmm.. it depends!
37. School subject(s): lol PE!
38. Candy: too many!
39. Breakfast: blueberry waffle+ honey!
40. Juice: ehh. anything! not some idiotic tomato or carrot blended can alr
41. Book(s): ehh. anything!
42. Movie(s): hmm. dont have
43. Song(s): my fave song for today is.. ITENDSTONIGHT!
50. Letter(s): hmm..
51. Favorite fast food restaurant : hmm dont know leh. probably longjohnsilver or BK?
52. Disney Princess: heh i only like winniethepooh & baby minnie!
53. TV station: err anything one lah i dont watch tv
54. Name for a son + name for a daughter: i dont think it's relevant anymore.

******DO YOU PREFER*****
56. Chocolate or Vanilla? : CHOCOLATE!
57. Alcoholic or not? : hmm it's not good to drink too much!
60. Scary movies or comedies? : both!
61. Short or long hair? : hmm STYLE!
62. Croutons or bacon bits? : BACON!

******FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND******
64. Mexicans in general: mac-he-co!
65. School: aj!
66. Grass: goat
67. Cow: shit
68. Canada: pizza
69. Mouse: BABY MINNIE!
70. Hands: 2 hands with the shape of a heart

******THE PAST 3 DAYS, HAVE YOU******
71. Watched a movie? : nope (:
72. Talked on the phone? : DUH -.-
73. Cried? : yup
74. Choked? : with emotions
75. Drank a glass of water? : -.- nono i drank many glasses
76. Done Drugs? : no lah -.-
77. Read a book or magazine? : yaaa
78. Watched TV? : i think so =x
79. Looked in the mirror? : yea
80. Taken a shower? : yea i dont stink that badly!
81. Taken a picture? : YEA MANY!
82. Listened to music? : yeaa
83. Kissed someone? : past 3 days? no
84. Told someone you liked them? : i dont think so. BUT I CONFESSED MY LOVE FOR SHORTIE! LOL
85: End time: 4.26pm

01] Is there someone who you like at the moment?- yep.
O2] Have you ever given or been given roses?- yep. both.
O3] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?- my own movie! haha
O4] How many times can you honestly say you've been in love?- im not sure.
O5] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?- yea
O6] Do you think that you should be friends first?- yea
O7] Have you ever had your heartbroken?- yea
O8] What do you think about long-distance relationship?- no harm trying as long as there's love & trust.
O9] Your thoughts on online relationships?- i have no idea
1O] Would you rather date someone five years older or younger?- hmm. anything lah
11] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?- yea. good friend!
12] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?- i think it depends
13] How many ids do you want to have?- whats that?
14] Do you usually fall for a wrongboy/girl or the right boy/girl?- how would i know
15] What is your favorite color(s)?- i mentioned this jus now! so.. shant answer it again
16] What are your views on gay marriage?- i think its okay mah :D and lesbianmarriage is okay too!
17] Have you ever broken someones heart?- hmm.. yea i guess
18] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you re-marry?- obviously not -.-
19] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?- how would i remember
2O] What song do you want to hear at your wedding?- more than words

1. Talk to a boy/girl you like? erm. 'talk' isnt the exact word
2. Realize anything new? yea. plenty of stuff
3. Is Rihanna Hot? yea i guess
4. Miss someone? yea

LAST PERSON WHO:
5. Slept in your bed? my bear haha
6. Last person that saw/heard u cry? haha. i think any one from toilet gang
7. You went to the movies with? northernstar!
9. You said "I love you" to and meant it? if LOVE is friend-friend kind, i just told YVONNE! if LOVE is more than just friend-friend kind, it has to be him

LAST PERSON THAT:
10. Made you laugh? haha my aunt
11. Said they loved you? hmm.. CANT SAY! lol
12. Called you in the middle of the night? wow i cant rem!
13. Do you have a crush on someone? i dont know. not a crush lah

JUST PLAIN QUESTIONS:
14. What book are you reading now? im doing this, how to read?
15. Best feeling in the world? to be loved by someone you love.
16. Favorite location? hmm.. i dont know.
17. Piercing/tattoos? not too many.
18. What are you most scared of right now? hmm.. not sure
19. Where do you want to get married? anything lah it doesnt matter anymore
20. Who do you really hate? i dont hate!
21. Does anyone really hate you? yea of course
22. Do you like being around people? hmm it depends
23. Have you ever cried? name me a person who hasnt cried befre
24. Are you lonely right now? erm. depends on how u want to see it. but yea, i guess. subconsciously
25. Song stuck in your head right now?ITENDSTONIGHT!
26. Been on radio/TV? heh no
27. Ever liked someone, but you think they never noticed you? im not sure
28. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap? erm shant comment
29. How many beds did you lay in yesterday? one lah. how many you want.
30. What color shirt are you wearing? black
32. How much cash do you have right now?LOL pathetic. shant say.
35. Who got you to join my space? dont know lah cant rem
36. What did you have for dinner last night? hmm.. yoshinoya!
39. Are you a member of FriendWise.com? what the heck
40. Do you have plants in your room? -.- yea flowers. fake ones
41. Does anything hurt on your body right now? the heart
42. Where was your last cab ride? cant rem. from aj to nh
44. Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex? anything lah no right to care

okay. damn sian after doing all these. shall continue watching my naruto episode 221 :D

happy chinese new year everyone. :) may worries be gone & friendships stay strong.

happy cny to my family!
happy cny to TOILET GANG!
happy cny to 25/06!
happy cny to s14 & og27 peeps!
happy cny to trackers!
happy cny to nhnp!
happy cny to black bastard & the rest of the indians in my class!
happy cny to nh classmates!
happy cny to the rest of my friends! :D

& i hope you stay happy.

2007-02-16T23:57:00.000+08:00

AND I SHALL CONTINUE TO WISH THAT WE WOULD STOP FIGHTING ONE DAY AND BE GOOD FRIENDS, JUST LIKE BEFORE. JUST PURELY FRIENDS. no need pigandowner also can. as long as we stop fighting.

i've never lied to you. never. anything regarding the two of us. purely the two of us.

2007-02-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

(: TIRED! spent one whole day out shopping wif marmie & REAL mummy + baby. haha confusing for those who dont know who i'm talking about!

so now i'm left with a pair of shoes to buy! (: TIRED. TIRED. super tired. rarh! MARMIE ROCKS! =D toiletgang rocks lah :D i promise the pics will be up real soon! hafen been using the other laptop so i cant transfer the photos. lazy to install the cd-rom for my precious lumix! (: haha

PLAYED SOME TOTAL DEFENCE THINGY TODAY. damn fun lah! (: heh had one hell of a good time okay ;D laughing and almost fainting. lol and I WON 8BUCKS from MR LAU. omigosh :D coz i got the probability answer correctly & was the fastest :D lol PRO WOR. he sponsored part of the blouse i bought today! lOL. thanks a lot for saving me from financial crisis! :D

cant wait for cny! (: okay, i cant wait for tomorrow! where i can start slacking! :D woots. =) most prob cant go out wif toiletgang on mon! ): going overseas! ): -CRIES-

spotted a few nice bags with marmee! probably buying soon! shud be :D heh. marmee rocks! i love marmee! :D -yawns-

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR! (:

& i'll be happy! =D

oh. HAPPY BDAY ASSHOLIC DI. i nearly forgot! HAHA. yes, i know i rock :D GROWUP! & TREAT UR FUTURE GFs nice okay :D lol & u owe me 70cents LOL! ur so DUM vulgar lah! LOL.

2007-02-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

went shopping with lovelies today! (: haha shortie i'm so sorry. i'll stop making u confused & will stop making you think so much! (: and i'll send u the photos soon don't worry :D

spasticauntie, CHEER UP OKAY! (: dont wry, i screwed up my prac too. haha but dont tink about it! (: you must learn to be heck care like me! (: haha

YVONNE PRESIDENT! for some reason the part where i thanked you DISAPPEARED! thanks so much for the black pouch heh :D but it's no surprise for me since we went to shop for it together -.- HAHA. :D somehow i feel so bad for not preparing bday prezzie for you last time! nevermind! (: still got chance de! =D THANKS A ZILLION! (:

marmie is SUPER spastic lah! haha -faints- you all damn farnie. I LOVE TOILET GANG! (:

toilet gang, thanks a hell lot for trying to distract me or tell me to stop thinking about it :D you guys rock! but sorry i've been disappointing you all a lot. =\ but i guess i'm just not determined enough. takes time! (: so give me more time! i dont know how long i'll take though. i'll try.. rarh.

YVONNE & I HAVE THE SAME TOP NOW! (: hahaha

cant wait for newyr 2nd & 3rd day! (: so fun lah! =D toilet gang rocks! x)

feels like a holiday tomorrow! i wont want to wake up for sch! =x

2007-02-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

HOW MANY TIMES MUST YOU ALL MAKE ME CRY! ): HAHA.
okay, only two people made me cry and many people made me touched. omigosh ):
one stupid girl is virnice! i'll miss you like crap, i swear. yep, aj track is a team which is awesome. because the passion is there, the love is there, its a pity you may not be ard to train with us anymore. i'll miss ur nonsense, and training wont be as fun as before! i'll miss your malu times, i'll miss the crazy times with you! ): if we cannot organise track outing, the few of us go out okay :D -hugs- I LOVE YOU! (: THANKS FOR THE WONDERFUL TIMES! (:

okay, HAPPY VDAY! (: not too happy for me, but not that sad either haha :D it all started when i was with zb in CITIGEMS and the saleslady said, 'yea i agree with you. dont need buy jewellery only on vday. treat gf well and every day is vday.' true.. but the sad fact is i'll never have the chance to experience that for the next few yrs i guess. haha. -shrugs-

SPECIAL THANKS TO THOSE WHO GAVE ME FLOWERS! HAHA 2 red, 2 orange, 2 pink roses. one of which is from my fake valentine! and 1 sunflower from my beloved CHERYL, EILEEN & HUIJUIN! omigosh ii love you guys so much! (: MISS YOU ALL! S14 ROCKS LAH :D special thanks to the few who wrote me cards! (: damn sweet! & black bastard, i think you understand me the most. just when every one else thought i was happy, only you figured that this day would hurt the most for me. haha rarh. THANKS FOR YOUR SWEET CARD! (: thanks shortie & marmie for the encouragement! 'll survive! thanks bee for the ilurbeeu worx! 'll eat the apple soon! thanks joyce&wendy for the cute card & stamp! thanks ANDERSON SEC GUYS for the kinder surprise & ferroro & merci! merci got squashed by the big rose though. LOL sorry! thanks purpledoraemon for the choc biscuits! my fave! (: omigosh thankew all those who gave flowers! :D thanks to track guys for the sweet card! thanks ah zhao for the card & chs! thanks huiqi & huimin! omigosh thankyou for e sweetmsgs! :D

so i had track & ran like crazy today, despite my muscles killing me. haha and now i'm so super dead. luckily ass didnt bring me to walk the whole singapore today HAHA. ur jie rocks right :D got vday prezzie, bday prezzie, bday card, WHAT ELSE! haha thanks a zillion for the rose! (: yea its gay! HAHA. and you must use the bball okay. :D and YES. THECARD. black&orange! haha you ought to feel bad that you nv spend ur bday with your 1stvalentine okay. HAHA. :D happy bday in 2 days' time :)

time flies. 1 yr since the last vday. haha. (: it's the 1st time i got so many roses.. haha the most i got was 1 real red rose on sister's bday last yr? and another last vday? haha. maybe a few more from others, but i cannot remember.

vday isnt vday for me! (: its frenship day :D better than nth. sigh.

GRATS TO SOMEONE WHOSE BIG DAY IS TODAY! :) MAY YOU TWO LAST LONG!

HAPPY BDAY AIK!

2007-02-12T23:02:00.000+08:00

omigosh ): my war&beauty show ended alr ): sad ending. 2 lovers who died in the embrace of each other, and another 2 lovers with the female injured & the male ignorant of it.. and the female died while lying on his shoulder can! >.< go die lah. what a stupid ending. lovers who cannot spend the rest of their lives together ): toldcha, forever does not exist. =\

shortie, HAPPY PREPARING THE GIFT! (: while i slack & go find prezzies after sch tomorrow LOL. im so dead lah ): not enuff time alr! >.< at least must give our class ppl sth right. =x

track was damn fun today lah! cracked lots of stupid jokes -.- and trained well today. but i guess i didnt have the determination to finish the self-training =x onli did 4 400m raps with nana (: rarrh! AND IT'S VDAY ON WED! we were thinking of doing sth for our beloved lao chen :D LOL then they said track dinner on wed -.- but i guess lao chen needs to celebrate vday with his wife! :D so sweet huh x) haha

why must life be full of choices? even if you choose the wrong path, you cannot live with regrets because you were given the choice & you chose it anyway. what crap ): but its true..

i chose to love you, i dont regret, and now i find it so hard to forget you. or maybe it has just been 2months, so obviously i cant get over it in such a short while! (: anyway kinda xinlianxin-ed juz now, coz i was thinking of you and you happened to msg me. (: haha.

hurts big time

okay, since i reached home so late, i was unable to do my work coz i had to watch tv at 10pm. shall start doing work now! :D lets pray i dont fall aslp! :)

packed week! but im free on fri (i.e asshole's bday) SO PLEASE DATE ME! HAHA. >.< shall come home and slp on friday le lah. :D heh.

shopping for bag! :D woots

2007-02-11T12:15:00.000+08:00

:D crazy alr =D woke up so late today. so i didn't go run. rarrh! quite good mood today. until mummy asked me about something. hmm. =\

i just pestered dad to get roses for mum for VDAY! =D it's INTERNATIONAL FRIENDSHIP DAY for me! :D so it's okay to not have a valentine! no need to get upset over it! :D but oh wells. :D 14TH FEB IS GONNA BE A COOL DAY! =D fully-utilized day, & gonna feast for dinner! :D at least eat something lah :D

rarrh. sister is right! :D i shall not think about things anymore :D heck heck heck x) thanks shortie for being so fierce towards me about that! haha :D and persistent. lol :D ENJOY UR DATE TODAY! =D lol

gonna get curtains for my room later :D pretty! =D

and i will walk away from you.

2007-02-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

screwed up badly! for today. looks lyk the 4 bullseye were unable to save my other shots LOL. and i didnt give in my best for the run. it sucks when we dont know the route for the run. rarh. bad day!

clar & the female track team are funny lah! haha clar shared so many of her stories today :D sweet and cute. xuelin too. but all relationships always start out perfectly nice what. haha

yay many ppl staying in aj :D at least the trackers are xD yayness.

looking forward to TRAINING & more training. esp training on wed :D since its gonna end so late @ turf city somemore. rarrh. :D

you claim you get hurt, you say you care. but aiya. you care about every other person anyway. -shrugs- dont believe then, you only care about the 'best times' i had while i did OCIP anyway. :D

for those going out on vday, ENJOY! while i enjoy my running & aj canteen food. ha.

dont be upset! you'll get into the nx round for drama :D smile x)